Ten years

some friend you turned out to be
all you wanted was to sleep with me
I was young and naive
and anything you said I’d believe
your idea of friendship was different than mine
that was the last time you crossed the line
I don’t fuck my friend’s boyfriends
and the means doesn’t justify the ends
just because you couldn’t get me in the sack
didn’t mean you could stick a knife in my back
I know two wrongs do not make a right
but with all that shit you were asking for a fight
I used to think I was above all that
but no one’s ever pissed me off like that
you knew how much I cared about John
but you had to fuck him and now he’s gone
I never thought things would end
and that’s no way to treat a friend
I think you know
why I asked him to go
I know I should’ve handled things better
but I couldn’t stand to see the two of you together

ten years later it’s been awhile
ten years later I forget his smile
ten years later, such a long time
ten years later my resentment sublime
ten years later that’s all in the past
ten years later my anger didn’t last
ten years later I forgive your sins
ten years later neither one wins
ten years later I ask myself why
ten years later I never said goodbye

I wanted to hate you
but I really couldn’t blame you
we both were taken in
by his charm and grin
the only consolation that I see,
he dropped you faster than me

life goes on, you are still my friend
sometimes I think to the bitter end
lucky for you I could never hold a grudge
what for? who am I to judge?