The trail of clothes strewn about the floor
betray the escapades of the night before
My boyfriend and I had just broken up
you were at the club and would not give up
I was feeling lost and lonely
you were looking for cheap sex only

amidst the stench of alcohol and sweat
I knew you were someone I could easily get
somehow I needed your affection
to make me feel worthy of his rejection
your selfish desperation
fed on my inner desolation

I want to erase what we�ve done
realizing you are not the one
I only have myself to blame
for now I feel nothing but shame

as I look at you sleeping in unaware bliss
I wonder what I did to deserve all this
did I love him too much?
is that why he cringed from my touch?

I wish I could numb the pain in my heart
right now it feels like I�m falling apart
sometimes the only way to heal the hurt
is to get down and wallow in the dirt
like dancing with danger
a meaningless tryst with a stranger

sex with you was just a release
a sad attempt to put my mind at ease
I hope you know this was just a game
and I don�t even want to know your name
I thought you could alleviate the pain
caused by this tragic refrain
thinking about last night with such disdain
even when you�re gone my regret will remain

I�ve nothing but pornographic guilt
from the body fluids we�ve spilt
unfortunately nothing can placate my desperation
not even these acts of hollow degradation

I just want an end to the ache
from this so-called mistake