Rambling Thoughts

Julie is a young, vibrant, "girl about town," at least, that's my perception. The last year has been quite the experience for me, as I finally took Julie public, and am now experiencing life from the "femme" perspective.

After all the years of keeping Julie bottled up, going out to local support groups, to local clubs, even going shopping "en femme" for the first time have all come as revelations. The only regret I have is not coming out earlier in life.

But, like most of us, it takes a while to get comfortable with the dichotomy of our lives. We fight the perception of doing "something wrong" in pursuing our desire to dress, yet that need becomes overwhelming after a time. With age comes maturity and understanding, and that may be the key to finally coming with grips with our special nature, and being able to accept that fact that all the purging and denial in the world won't change what is going on inside of us.

We know that nobody can really explain why it is we do what we do. But, judging from the other sites I have visited, the other girls I have met through IXE, our local support group, and others like us in clubs, it may be late 30s or early 40s before we have the ability to accept the fact that we are special, and have our second self. Sure, there are younger TVs out there, with web sites professing their desire to fit their femme personna into their life. And maybe the Internet will be the great equalizer, the method that the younger generation will use to come to grips more quickly with who they are, and to understand that this is not "bad" or "wrong" or "immoral." Like the generations before us, we all have helped to pave the way for the next. While acceptance and understanding isn't universal, it seems that tolerance grows with each decade passing, so our younger sisters may not have to go through the years of closeted dressing like many of the rest of us. Now, on with the Julie's Waystation!

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On to some pictures (after all, aren't web pages just an ego trip?!)