July 2001 my entry into the digital camera age ... i must admit that i got rather carried away ... my only excuse is that this is the only way nowadays that i have available to exist (other than who i am in my head of course) ... i only hope that those who love me and know me can please forgive me and accept me for what i am ...

A warm summery night in July.  This light breezy summery dress just felt right.  And I felt, well, transformed.  Transported to dreamland once again.

Why not something besides the usual routine smile?  Some other expressions and emotions?  This was fun!!

i look at these pictures and see little trace of (supposedly) who i am (in my day to day life) ... there's no denying that THIS is me ... the smile and happiness are undeniable ... undeniable signs that  i'm pretty happy as amber ...  i wish that i could figure out what to do ... i just don't feel that i can take much more of this divided existence where i feel that i'm living a lie ...