Octber 29,1999

Dear Diary,
  It was the best of times, it was the worst of times. That sums up tonights
adventure.There was a department Halloween party tonight . And I went as
Liz.  Christa did  the hair, A friend  did a great job on my makeup . We got
to the party, and everyone was shocked that  A: I really came as a woman.
B: that I looked pretty darn good. . Several co-workers, female and male
commented that I looked better as a woman, that I looked happier, and that
I should just be Liz at work too . At least 2 people, I think, figured out that
what they saw was not just a halloween costume.

So why am I depressed ? Because to me , I SHOULD be all that ...
but cant.