During my years as a christian, over 25 yrs. now, God has given me wonderful prayer partners, I have had so many awesome experiences with the Lord, I know there is a calling on my life, just because God calls you to something, does not mean the road will be easy, mine has not been, I have had many problems to deal with, some I will not discuss on this site, but privately I will talk about them to anyone interested. My husband died very suddenly 4 yrs. ago., it was a terrible unexpected shock to all of us, I have some regrets about my past marriage and things I did not do and things I did not say but the past is the past, it took about 2 yrs. to work thru the shock alone, my son and I lived here alone and it was difficult but God provided all we needed. My daughter returned to Canada l yr. later. I know God prepared my husband for death, even at the time, we were not aware of it, I saw so many changes in him the two yrs. before he died, my children also saw the changes, good things were happening and I know now God prepared him. The year before he died, the last mothers day he was alive, he sent my mother and his mother a beautiful bouquet of flowers, I never knew about it till they told me, I believe God was behind that. He had never done this before, his mother said he also sent her a cross. God is so mericful, I have sinned so much in my life and He still calls me to repentence and takes me back over and over again. At the time of his death, his mother flew out from N.B. and we had a wonderful 3 wks. with her, it was so good to be with her, over the yrs. our trips to N.B. were few, she has since passed away, a few months ago, I am so happy we had that 3 wks. with her.
I believe God has a special plan for all of us, it is up to us to surrender and find that plan, I have gotten lostmany times and had to find my way back to God., I never went very far, He has been my only strength for many years, I have no other desires but to know Him more and more and serve Him, nothing of this world interests me anymore. He is such a wonderful God and helper, he has taken me thru many valley's and we climbed many mountains, I do not even feel the desire of need to have another mate, God is my helper and in the word he says he is our husband. Isa. 54 5. For your Maker is your husband, the Lord Almighty is his name, the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer." The Lord has given me that verse many times, I love to read and study His Word. For whatever years I have left, all I want to do is to serve Him.
I struggle with panic attacks, addictions,, I have been taking medication for anxiety for 15 yrs. The Lord has guided me and directed me all thru this, we wonder sometimes how we can serve God and be close to Him and yet struggle with our problems, God never promised a rose garden to any of us, not in this lifetime, we can still serve Him and be close to Him in fellowship no matter what we are going thru. God does not want to use the proud, Jesus is meek and lowly and He wants us to be like Him, not full of pride, humble and meek. I know people who have the gift of healing yet they are in need of healing themselves, the Lord says he allows us to go thru trials so we can help others the way he has helped us. God promised in his Word there would be no more suffering, pain in heaven, no more tears, but He never promised that on this earth in this lifetime. He said we would go thru tribulations on this earth, fiery trials, but He did promise to be with us each step of the way and He would never leave us or forsake us.
I have been studying Revelation for sometime now and I am a great lover of the End Times, I believe we are nearing the very end just before Christ comes back. Many people will be shocked, they are not prepared for what is going to come on this earth, more earthquakes, floods, trials, Jesus said these are all signs of the End just before His return to earth. Jesus talks about the wise and foolish virgins, the necessity of being prepared for His return. Its time for us to get ready, get the sins out of our lives, start living for Him, the Lord has been speaking this to me for sometime now, to be prepared to stand before the Son of Man. I have references to end time ministries on my link pages under the Rapture, etc., I hope you will look those over and see how near we are. In Matthew Ch.24 Jesus gives the signs of the end of the age. There are many conflicting views of the end times, when the rapture, etc. will take place, it does not matter what you believe as long as you are ready. I will be adding pages as time goes on, the Lord has taught me much and I will be sharing it as I go alongand feel led, so I hope you will look over some of the links I use on my pages, I will be sharing more as time goes on. On one of my pages I give a place where you can find salvation, Care and Share page two, go there if you feel you need to pray and accept the Lord in your heart. I wish you all the best and God Bless you. Mary Ann |
