Author's Notes: Oh, I answer your 'question' at the bottom of the page, EPM. Anyways, the dialog in this chapter is a little funky. But you can tell who from who is talking. Ah, and for heavy Christians, I suggest you skip a couple lines of dialog when it gets to the God vs. Satan part. I tried to make it romantic on a first try when writing the chapter, EPM, but it didn't get into contact with the plot line. It may be a few more chapters 'till I actually get to ANY romance. This means I have to shift my outline. ;.;
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'Now there's no point in placing the blame
And you should know I suffer the same
If I lose you
My heart will be broken
Love is a bird, she needs to fly
Let all the hurt inside of you die
You're frozen
When your heart's not open'
~Madonna, "Frozen"
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Of Crows and Doves
Chapter 8: Confessions, Reactions, Stimulations
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"Watch me laugh. Watch me bleed. Watch me blush. Watch me suffer. Watch me run. Watch me fall. Watch me smile. Watch me cry. Watch me live. Watch me die."
"What�?"
"You will watch my rises and falls, Lime Acid."
"'Watch me die�?'" Neon green eyes saw silky, soft lips quark up into a smirk, even through the darkness. She felt her heart beat rise, horror written all over her face. Yaten swallowed hard, almost panting. "What exactly are you implying�?!"
"I wasn't implying a thing." Seiya wrapped her arms around Yaten, drawing her close to the point that they could hear each other's heartbeats.
"I need heroin�" Seiya sighed and dug through her pocket pulling out a syringe and handing it to Yaten.
"Use it wisely."
"Whatever." Yaten stuck into one of the large pockets on the side of her pants, neer her knee.
"Your heart beats so slow*�"
"Yours just goes too fast." Yaten snickered.
"Honestly, Lady Caine, you can be dense* sometimes." Yaten twirled a lock of Seiya's black hair around her finger, while Seiya nodded.
"I suppose you're right�" Yaten blinked and looked up at Seiya from the spot she had on Seiya's shoulder. Midnight blues eyes reflected pain, sorrow, while tinted with hatred. "I'm stupid aren't I? Absolutely stupid." Yaten's eyes widened.
"Lady Caine?"
"Stupid. I'm an idiot. I knew I was bad."
"Lady Caine�!!"
"I knew drugs were bad."
"Stop�!!"
"I knew drinking was bad."
"Shut up!!"
"I knew killing was a 'sin' of God."
"KNOCK IT OFF�!!"
"I shouldn't have hurt my mother."
"Seiya�?!"
"I shouldn't have disrespected my father."
"WAKE UP!!"
"I shouldn't have killed my baby brother."
"Please�!!"
"I shouldn't have tried killing myself, because all the stress and pressure is originated by nobody but myself."
"You're not the Seiya Kou, the Lady Caine I know!"
"I'm a murderer."
"No�"
"I'm a sinner."
"Stop�"
"I'm a junkie."
"Who are you?"
"I'm a liar."
"No you're not."
"I'm almost not even human."
"No�"
"I keep telling myself, 'Everything will be all right.' 'Everything will be okay.' 'I can make it through this'�"
"And you can�!"
"I'm guilty."
"�"
"I corrupted you. I made you into someone, something different. That sweetness isn't in you anymore. It's been replaced by hatred. What was once a pure white dove is now a corrupted black crow. A heroin addict*�" Yaten lifted her hand and smacked Seiya hard. Her head jerked to the right on impact. Yaten growled.
"What the FUCK is wrong with you?"
"I don't know� Gomen nasai." Seiya lifted a hand and run her fingers over her reddened cheek. She glanced down at Yaten and smiled weakly. "Did you ever wonder if there is a 'God' though, Lime Acid?"
"Yeah�"
"He's really one hell of a bastard.*"
"Whatever."
"Where's your 'God' when you're suffering?" Yaten shrugged carelessly. "When people are crying, dying painfully� Where's 'God' then?"
"Somewhere that's not here."
"What about Satan?"
"What about Him?"
"Maybe I was blessed with his evil soul." Yaten gave Seiya a worried look, and didn't know what to do other than hug Seiya tightly. "Maybe I'm here to carry out his evil, destructive orders."
"Shhhh�"
"It's apparent God hates us. Both of us." Yaten looked up at Seiya, slightly confused. Seiya just bent down and placed a lingering kiss on Yaten's lips. "Gomen nasai�"
"It's all right� Nobody should hold anything� in�" Yatens shivered when Seiya bent down and began placing a trail of kisses to her collar bone.
"I want you�"
"I'm always yours."
"I love you."
"I love you too."
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**Yet, another note to the readers: Drug addicts would kill if they didn't get drugs. And they'd also kill, steal, or have sex just to have them. Sad, but true. Seiya was awfully pissed because she didn't get her meth or her ecstasy. I handled the situation to way a hardcore drug addict would.**
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*Post up a new sign* Author's Encyclopedia/Dictionary/Drug Slang Referal/Explanation Guide/Notes:
1.) Slow heartbeat is an indication of substance abuse.
2.) Seiya's 'density' is caused by the drug and brain chemical reaction. Even when not on the drugs, they can screw up mental functioning
3.) You're probably asking yourself 'Since when did Yaten become a heroin addict in this story?' Well, to be quite honest, sometimes the timeline shifts. One chapter might be a 'next day' type thing and then the other chapter might be a 'few weeks later' type thing. Apparently, this chapter was one of those 'few weeks later' chapters. Within about 3 weeks, in the original outline, Yaten did heroin repeatedly. 2 tries of heroin alone are enough to get you addicted.
4.) My deepest apologies to any Christians. Don't hate me.
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