3:19 - I'm writing an essay for Johns Hopkins University. I don't even knoe why i'm trying b/c it's obvious that I'm NOT going to get in. Geez...my mom is forcing me to send the application. And i keep threatening that i'm not goign to send it. What a shame. I think she's holding on to some hope that i'm not so stupid. BIG NEWS FLASH~ I'm dumber than most ppL think I am. Truthfully, it really bothers me. Just b/c i'm some Asian girl...doesn't mean i'm not like the MAJORITY of the asian population. I'm proud to be an asian, but i'm not proud that i'm not like the majority of my brothers and sisters...hehe....that sounds so weird, but it's true. I really hope that Chapel Hill doesn't reject or have me deferred...ek! I'm listening to Shinhwa's 2nd album..isn't it juss great influence when i need to be concentrating on an essay? Yes, I know. :-D Well...will write more laterz...i really need to get this essay over with! :-P
10:18 - I finally finished my college essay for Johns Hopkins University. It was rather short and simple, but i think i got my main point across. I read Native Son for a while. It's a prettie good book, better than any Emily Dickinson poem i will ever touch or read again. I hate poetry. Why can't you juss get your freakin' point across? Well i guess poetry about love is okay. And any Shakespeare poem is 'HIP'. Now all i have to do is get my NCSU application done, but it won't be done tomorrow! Hehe That reminds me, i have to go get checks....ek! ARG~ well i'll right later if i have anything inspiring left to say.
11:26 - Ah! I'm listening to angry music today...or music about "what's wrong with me? what's wrong with you?" haha~ basically....why are you living life that way? Haha..right now what's playing is Papa Roach's Last Resort~ very angry music, doncha think? I've been working on psych terms...i'm using old notecards...where i only used on side... Yeah, i'm not usually this cheap, but now i am :-P. Afterwards, if i'm awake, i'm going to work on some biology worksheets...dumb ppL had to make it all nice -n- long~ great! what a wonderful think to be doing over the break~ lovely~ Bobby's mad at Marjorie, cuz she likes david kim...what can i say but tell my friend, get over the girl...she's not worth moping your life over (although marjorie is a really sweet girl). Yeah, i understand how Bobby feels. Rejection sucks. Although, i shouldn't be talking about that. I'm the so-called "bad guy" right now because yeah, i "dumped" Andrew. Too bad we weren't "official"!!!!!!!!!! It doesn't matter. I don't knoe how i'm going to face him at Orchstra rehearsals. If i don't talk to him, he'll think i hate him, and then if i do talk to him, try to be nice to him, he'll think that i'm leading him on and i might even give him hope that i still like him. I only want to be friends. :-\ I don't think i'll change my mind either. I think a lot ppL think that i'm evil now....i hope not, but oh well if they do, cuz it really wasn't my fault, i couldn't help the fact that i was the one getting rejected. |
