12182001

3:29 p.m. - Today was an interesting, but tiring day......i'm getting a fever blister on the right side of my lips....arg! I hate fever blisters....i hate doing School work....i'm ready to go shopping and have some fun! Ms. Blanpain made me go sit in the back of the classroom because i was being loud.....too bad i was only laughing at other ppL. Anywayz.....more news on some colleges...while i still have not gotten accepted, Mou Medda got into Georgetown University~! Congrats..i'm sure Mou will get into basically any college she applies to. A lot of people are getting defered or denied admission which really sucks...and i think i'm going to fall into that category :-\. Seema got denied for early admission at Stanford, but she's going to get into Duke~so it's all good, right Seema? Emily Crutcher got defered from Georgetown...and she was pissed this morning....i would be too because Emily would've been a good candidate for any university with all her leadership and she tries hard to be a good student. I mean at this rate no college is going to accept me. Ak! I wonder if anyone is applying to Cal Tech or MIT from our school. So far no one has gotten into Duke...which really sucks...that juss shows how hard it is. I dunno Dan really well but i heard he got rejected from Duke also :-( it's okie guys...other universities will surely accept you guys :-)

Amy and Ben pissed me off today about religion. I mean....okie....i'm sure it is said that you are guarenteed that you will go to heaven if you believe that Jesus Christ died for your souls because humans are natural sinners, etc, and if you are a good person. Just because you think something is not a good deed, doesn't mean other people think that. I mean...i'm sure if you weren't a virigin when you get married doesn't mean that you WON'T get into heaven....that means.....OH NO......anyone who got divorced would have to go to HELL~ *blashphemy* whatever~ Okie....maybe i was wrong on the Bible NOT being the word of God...it is....but the ideas of the people who edited the Bible didn't entirely show the true word of God.....juss because you live by the bible does not mean you will go to heaven either~! GOOD GOD~ religion pisses me off........cuz why can't you juss accept other ppL's beliefs? Juss becuase you have a friend that doesn't believe in the same God as you doesn't mean that they are wrong or that their ideas are wrong. Trying to convert ppL to christianity is not a bad thing....but if you nag them....they are juss going to shut you out...it's not a healthy thing. I dunno.....religioin....is both a good and bad thing....church can be both a good and bad thing.....what i have seen in most churches is that church is a place for a weekly social event, catch up on current gossip and happenings...rarely do you find a church where it is used for it's proper purposes which is to worship God..most ppL say that they are Christian but are they indeed what they say they are? I mean...like recently Andrew asked me when i was going to start going to church, and i said "when i get my license." And in the back of my mind....i was wondering if Andrew would be interested in me if i were Aethiest like Dan......i mean...i'm assuming that Andrew considers Dan as one of his good friends..but i can see where Andrew doesn't like him for certain reason...one would because Dan is an aetheist.............I'm sorrie....i have probs with that...becuase you should accept the person the way they are.....Ben was talking about free will.....so why not let your friends have free will? Why do they have to believe in the Christian God and Jesus Christ?

I talked to scott about the 3 different (main) stages in a relationships (the Sparkle, disillusionment and mutual consent).....i'm very frustrated at this moment about how i dunno when to relationship........scott said....it's up to you and how much you want the relationship........GAWD~ well going to go take a 15 min nap~ laterz

6:32 p.m. - I don't understand guys...they always go for the WRONG girls....girls that would never go out with them. Their standards are too high and the flirting concept to guys is that "OH SHE LIKES ME" that may be the case 35% of the time......but most often....if they girl juss thinks of you as a friend, she may be juss using you because she just wants to have fun......she doesn't want to get into a deep relationship with you becuase you're juss not that type of guy. I think i can speak for some girls when i say that girls are more carfeul..sure we open our eyes wide open when a hottie walks by and even try to go up to them.....but when we knoe that it's useless we quit trying...unless your like one of those characters who will juss do anything to throw yourself at him....usually doesn't work unless the guy is use to it and when you finally get the picture that he doesn't wan tyou and leave....he misses you and realize OH SHE'S GREAT! ak~! i dunno gus are too much trouble. I juss told Andrew a minute ago that i don't miss him anymore....he thought i was being sarcastic in the beginning, but when i said.....i use to but not anymore....and he responded with "oh God are you serious?" yeah i was being serious....i have to complain...the guy has time to play basketball on the weekends, yet has no time to work around his schedule to see a movie with me. That juss shows how much he misses me...and he complains that i don't take time to get out of the house (basically lie to my mom) to see him, when he won't even lie to his mom ONCE. I give up so much of my time for andrew sometimes that i'm sick of it..i don't even get to see him for 10 min! Whatever~ i'm juss not going to care anymore.....maybe he'll dump me.........i don't care right now......but wait a sec...OH WE'RE NOT EVEN GOING OUT~! ~PEACE OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (i sound pissed, but i'm actually very calm :-D)

9:42 p.m. - i juss got back from a biology project group meeting at Abby's house. She has a NICE house......would love to live in a house like that.........:-D Abby's a really nice person too! I feel kinda bad for her and Laura because they both have papers to do tonight......and all i have to do is touch up some labs and do a pamplet for out project. Actually i'm so behind on the biology labs that i prob will be staying up all night doing them :-P that sucks~! I was talking to abby about college and stuff......although i am very excited and can not wait until i go to college.......i'm kinda scared..i'll be off on my own, i have to learn how to manage my life a lil more since i do have more freedom. I wonder what kind of guys i will meet in the near future. Hopefully some nice, caring, decent, and maybe some WILD guys~ hehe......weell..i'm going to get back to doing my labs~ laterz