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| Week of NOVEMBER 8, 2001 |
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| November 9, 2001 GEEZ this SUCKS! i don't get it! i juss typed out such a great journal entry and then an error occurs! geez! aiite...start over...i was talking about love...how i had different views from everyone else...i debated this whole summer with TREY MACK about love....he said so far....with the girl he recently met..that was the closest he's ever gotten to love a person...that's cool.....but from my POV it wasn't...i mean then again...he askes me why i think i was in love with one of my exs...yeah i think i was in love with him...which is totally weird...because he was totally the WRONG guy for me...but something about him (oh yeah....how could i forget? he had great hair at the time....dunno if he still has it...for all i knoe he could've gone bald....hehe~*) anywayz....totally wrong guy turns out to be a great guy to me...except i figure out where we went wrong.....we never really saw each other (maybe that's why i thought and still think that i love him) and maybe he juss got sick-n-tired of someone he got to go out with once a month..and do nothing but go to the movies..thinking about it...up until now...all the relationships i have had.....for the majority gone on dates at the movies...dunno y...safe place where my parents couldn't track me down? hehe~anywayz....about my ex...yeah i was in love with him....i still love him....in a different way...he let me learn what love was to me and help me learn how love hurt...seriously....other than this stupid crush..i've never been so....hurt...but if he wanted to come back to me...i would take him back...it's so weird...even after i get hurt...i still want more....that's so weird...but i don't regret the times i spent with him.it'll be a great memory for me....geez this sounds like the quote from *CHO DAE*~ i'll leave you guys with that quote...aiite? here it is! Young Joo: Even though the times i spent with you were short, because i met you i was really happy. I dont' know how to thank you just because of that. It's a dear memory to me. You made me into an adult and you made me able to love. I'm sorry that i didn't tell you everything that during all this time while i met you i was really happy. i am really sorry for not telling you this. Seung Jae: Why don't you ask me...why we have to break up like this...why don't you ask? Young Joo: Because i love you...i trust you. Seung Jae: I can't let you hurt like this.... Young Joo: Because i met you, my heart opend and was born for the first time. So, i can get hurt....the first time you step into the world...you get hurt...you get healed...that's how you become an adult. Seung Jae: Do you not resent me? Young Joo: We all just didn't know...why don't we know how to love? Seung Jae: What do i do when i miss you so much? What do i do? Young Joo: While you live, don't think of me. Don't even miss me. If you keep on thinking of me, one day you won't knoe why you are sad... Seung Jae: .... Young Joo: Because you can't remember. November 8, 2001 Yo yo yo! What is up? Prettie much today is juss a testing out the site day....so bear with me......anywayz.....how was your day? Mine was prettie much great~ Actually it was kinda weird~OOOOOOOOHHHHHH....In 2nd period bio...Mrs. Franklin wasn't there and we had to take this stupid quiz....arg! it was the WRONG quiz...i didn't care...i didn't even try...anywayz...4th Period was interesting~Ms. Byrnes was like "Okie....go outside and do your journals....then when we got outside she was like spend 15 mins outside....do whatever you want....take a nap...reflect on your life....etc etc....it was great....but i swear...it wasn't for 15 mins...anywayz...basically the rest of the class was free time! What else? ummm......i fell asleep in AP STATS...i shouldn't have...but i couldn't help it...i was kinda feeling a lil dizzy...in 8th period...ToK.....OMG~ i was feeling a lil off.....but we talked about pre-maritial sex and i asked the question of "Let's say you were happily married and had some kids....but then after a couple of years.....your husband/wife cheated on you..would you ask for a divorce?" I dunno if it's cuz i'm young or whatnot...but i think i wouldn't juss flat out ask for a divorce....if at all possible....i wouldn't want one ESP. if i had children...i dunno...it's not like I WOULDN'T be upset...but..ya knoe~i dunno..hehe^^ Right now i have to study for an ENGRISH test for HENRY....and I MUST PASS THIS TEST!!!!!!!!! OMG~I still have a lab to do! arg! |
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