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One thing I HATE, as a Knight, is dishonesty, a Liar or "Player" or one who abuses someone elses trust for their own sick and twisted enjoyment or benefit.

Unfortunately, because I tend to trust people first, till given a reason not to, I was "played" more than once on here, by women who swore they were honest and claimed to hate liars as much as I did. Little did I know that this was just another Part of their LIE to me, and I fell for the story I was told. Each of them were so very good at drawing on my compassion and managed to fool me completely, until eventually I found out the truth, and each time, I was devestated and heart-broken. All but one of these had it backfire on them, because after starting out with the Lies, they fell deeply in love with me, as I had with them. They had to maintain their stories because they were trapped in the lie, as they started to realize I was more of a Knight than they thought. When they were finally exposed and the truth came out, they begged me to forgive them and tried to tell me they really did love me! ... But, how could I love or forget the pain of someone who had decieved me so deeply? How could I ever trust someone who had lied about everything they had told me? Everything I thought I knew about them, was false, ... they lied about their apperance, whether they were single, their pictures, their children, their jobs, their lives, thier friends, they cheated on me ... and not only to me, but to all our friends as well. I drove over 500 miles to see one of them and found out the truth only when she opened the door! I lost hundreds of dollars in phone calls, gifts, and jewelry that I'd sent them, even going as far as waiting at an airport 3 times for a plane that never arrived, at Christmas, no less. One of them even disguised her voice to convince me I was talking to her sister and Aunt on the phone, to support her story. Until I got suspicious and asked her other friends about her and found out she was playing 4 other guys at the same time under differant identities. The latest of these liars, Michele, I knew for 7 monthes and even though she knew all about these previous liars, she continued to lie from day one. Not to just me either, but to two other guys as well. And every time she was caught in a lie, she tried to lie more to cover over it.

So why am I telling you all this? to hurt these women? No, although they deserve it, but because I want people to know, just how vicious and cruel people can be out there, when toying with someones heart. Over and over I heard Michele say after she was exposed, "It doesn't matter" ... well, the IT here is my heart and my trust in women, and I think IT does matter. And even though, my heart was crushed each of these times, I'll never give up hope that the right honest person is out there for me. And I will Try NOT to let what these Liars did to me, affect my giving a newfound love, my complete trust and love. Because it is not right to hold what one person does wrong, over another person, but it gets harder to do each time as they scar my heart more and more. Do I hate these women? No, not really because I did fall in love with some of their qualities, but I DESPIZE what they did.

I am not a violent man. I am not a liar. I am not a player. And almost Nothing could make me more upset than to be falsely accused of such things. I am a Loving, Romantic, Sensuous Knight with a huge heart and I always will be. ~ Kevin ~