A Look At My Transition
1977 (age 7) - Started to live as female at school and away from home without parents and family knowing it.
1987 - 199X - Was living as female in high school...very hard to accomplish without serious consequences. At this time I was dating boys. So you can imagine how hard it was to find someone accepting of me. I thought I had but the last boyfriend I dated squealed on me in school and eventually lead to my being expelled for indecent exposure (according to principal it wasn't right for me to wear a dress).
Mid 90's to now - I had to figure out for sure if transitioning was the best thing for me. To do this I had to figure out what made me tick as a person. It came without question that being a woman was really who I am. Thus I started to do some serious changing in my life with first purging wardrobe, then coming out to family and friends who don't speak to me anymore.
July 2nd 2002 - I started to take hormone therapy through my family Dr that prescribed me 1.25 mg Premarine and 50 mg Spironolactone. Who also referred me to an endocrinologist.
August-Sept 2002 - Things were starting to change with the growth of breast and nipple's. Both were obviously very sensitive. Mood swings were getting more regular. Although I had severe mood swings my whole life. My dosage was lowered to see if the swings would become less of an issue.
Some time in 2004 - My Spironolactone was stopped and changed to Androcur while my Premarine dosage went up to 2.5mg. Due to Spironolactone not having any effect on my testosterone. Thus there was no point in taking it anymore.
Sep 29th 2004 Approx 6 months of being on Androcur - Blood test levels are amazing! Testosterone level of 1.9 (or non existent) Estrogen level of 400 (very high). This means that I could no longer function as a male which is good since I never wanted to anyway.
Jan 31st 2005 - I was experiencing cramps related to the estrogen. This was the first time it had happened. I was not able to move around for the first day without severe pain. Then it gradually became less painful as the next few days came about. I was in California at the time without a Dr to visit so stayed home.
April 4th 2005 - Blood test levels for Testosterone was 0.7 and Estrogen levels was 450. Had a very low platelets count but it was later discovered that 22q chromosome is the cause of my low platelet's and not the hormones.
Presently - I am seeing a genetics specialist on a regular basis as well as my endocrinologist. I really don't know if I have had any major changes to my body with hormone therapy since I am already for the most part female. Though I am fortunate to be the way I am and thankful for it as it has made the transition to correct the error a lot easier as I doubt it very much if I could do this with a normal average male body as too many complications would arise. I do wonder if I changed as a child how much difference there would have been in my appearance if any. As it's always better to transition in childhood/teenage/young adult years. My current T level is 0.4 (non existent and lowest possible level) so this means no functionality, no feeling, no sperm. It is as if it wasn't there. My estrogen levels are the same as last count.
October 5th 2005 - Diagnosed with Androgen Insensitivity Syndrome from my endocrinologist. Currently not known as to what extent of this condition as we are still doing testing but officially we are now aware. You can google it for more information on this intersexed condition.
June 2006 - July 2nd will mark 4 complete years on hormone replacement therapy (HRT). This link will tell you about in great detail the intersexed condition we are now researching about http://www.medhelp.org/www/ais/ We have learned that many tests can't be done due to having metal in my body. So it looks as though we'll never know what extent my condition is and you can see from the link how very complicated it can be. All you need to be concerned about is while its true that I was born XY I will NEVER EVER live or function as such as it is not physically or mentally possible mostly due to my intersexed condition but also because I am not male. You should know Intersexed is not in relation to Transgender as it is a physical condition where Transgender is a mental condition and deals with GID (Gender Identity Disorder).
I will finally have my name changed legally this year, going to get the lawyer signature at the end of June and send it in likely middle of July. So it should come back before my 36th birthday (Sep 10th). Then i'll be getting all new ids and a new passport as I plan on traveling some later this year to meet some people from a wonderful web site known as butch-femme.com
July 30th..its official I have sent in my name change forms...new name will be "Willow Elizabeth". No more yucky Christopher!!
If you feel in your heart that you can offer any kind of donation to help further my transition in a faster way as surgery is very expensive and takes a lifetime to save for the average person. I would greatly appreciate any kindness from you. You can send a donation through paypal to my email address: [email protected] If you wish to send me a money order you'll have to email me first for information on how to do so. There are money orders I cant accept since I'm in Canada.