Chapter 37
“
Yeah Steve... and all of you are shock right now. I know you guys!
Steve… theses following words are for you…
Stephen James Sculthorpe… You were the one that I cry so much. Justin was a
sorry excuse to hide
my feelings for you. Since a very, very long time my feelings for you had grow.
I think it since the 6th
grade that my feeling was pass over the friendship level. Every since that first
dance we had together to the song of 98*
“You Don’t Know”… Remember?! That was the time I had
realize that how much I need you in my life and I would risk
ANYTHING to have a chance to be with you and when I need you the most… you
really don’t know…
When you have a girlfriend or go and flirt with another girl in front of me. You
don’t know how much
you were killing me inside. I had love Justin once, but my feelings for you
cannot compare what I had for him.
And yes… I still have strong feelings for you while I was with Justin and you
with Donna.
My feelings is not like a simple old friendship crush. My feelings are real!
Like Ryan and Karlie. Lee and Tilky…
Stephen James Sculthorpe… I love you with all of my heart and soul… ”
With
a shock, everyone had their eyes on Steve and their mouth wide open right after
Buffy had confess her love to him. No one knew she could have those kind of
feelings for him. Steve then put his head down and tears felt down his eyes,
feeling guilty as ever.
“
I know that I should had say something sooner, but I was to afraid to ruin the
friendship we had.
Because if I did told you and nothing work out, we may loose or the friendship
won’t be the same anymore.
I treasure our friendship so much Stephen. Now that you had found yourself a
sweet and nice girl…
Donna!?!...
Please do me a favor? Please look after Steve. He had meant a lot to and I'm
sure he means a lot to you too.
Beside his family and his mom, it use to be my job to look after him. Now, I
think it's your turn to look after him.
Please do that for me? It's one of my last wish. Thanks you Donna...
I know that Steve deserve a great girl like you..
Before I finish I want all of you to be happy from now to your future...
I know it would be hard for you to be happy knowing that one of your friend had
pass away,
but please do that for me? You all know that I shall be looking after ALL of you
up here in
Heaven with God by my side...
I shall be there when you guys are laughing, smiling, sad, wiping... well you
get the ides,
but I shall always be there if you guys are calling out my name or thinking
about me. I shall be there
no matte what. Please be happy... now knowing that I won't need to suffer like I
was...
I love all of you and you know that it shall stay that way no matter what.
Take care everyone and Stephen... I love you and PLEASE stay happy...
even if I'm gone...”
After that tape ended, everyone started to cry. Especially Steve.
-
It’s
my fault! It’s my fault that she killed herself! It’s all my fault! She
wasn’t happy because of me! She cried and suffered because of me! Because of
me!!, Steve started to say out loud and non-stop.
-
No!
No! No! It’s not your fault baby! It’s not! She had some personal problems
and like she said, she haven’t kill herself for love and…
-
IT’S
MY FUCKING FAULT THAT SHE KILLED HERSELF!! IF I HAVEN’T SEE IT SOONER HOW SHE
FELT FOR ME, SHE’LL STILL BE ALIVE!!!!!!, Steve screamed.
No
one had seeing Steve this mad, upset and furious. Donna started to be scared,
because of his tone. Without saying a word, he ran into his bedroom and had stay
in there for hours.
Donna, who was still shook about Steve reaction towards, put her head down
before Lee came to her and gave her a hug. She told her that everything it was going
to be okay and Steve needed some times to cold down. But deep down inside, Donna
knew that there was a possibility that Steve had the same feelings for Buffy and
wasn’t ready to admit it to himself.