Chapter 34
The
news had passed all around the state. All of Buffy�s friends were at Steve�s
place to watch the video tape that she had prepare for them. Everyone was crying
mostly non-stop, two days ago when they got the news. They were suppose to go
somewhere with their parents, but they didn�t what to. Especially when it
involved to see their friend�s dead body.
Ryan, Karlie, Clay, Amy, Lee and Tilky arrived at the same time to Steve�s
place. TJ, Tiffany, Nick, Lissy, Lugo and Paola arrived about half an hour
later. Sergio and Maria about 15 minutes later. Donna had stay at Steve�s
place since the day of the tragedy. She was there for him if he needed
someone to talk, to conform or a shoulder to cry on. He had done a lot of
crying last night and hardly had any sleep at all.
Steve was holding the tape in his shaky hands and looking at it. Wondering what,
how and why his best friend could ended her own precious life. Especially why
she could cut herself without him knowing it. Everyone took a seat on the living
room. Some on the couch and some on the floor. Steve, still with the tape in his
hand, looked at everyone who was crying and they all had bags under theirs eyes,
which it showed that they haven�t got any sleep themselves.
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So�
is everyone ready to see what� hum� Buffy wanted to say to us?, he said in a
weak voice as the others nodded.
As
he was saying the sentence, he had so many problem saying her name. Cause it was
so hard for him to imagine that he had lost his best friend and especially wake
up the next day, knowing that he wouldn�t be able to see, heard, talk or laugh
with her. Steve put the video tape in the VCR and he went to sit down next to
Donna who gave him one of the biggest hug ever and he lay his head on her
shoulders and she gave him a kiss on the forehead.
As the video started to play, what they saw first was the baby blue bedroom wall
of Buffy�s room. It was moving around in all of the direction when the
camera finally stopped at the living room. Then the camera was place in front of
her sitting on the couch.
As soon as they saw Buffy innocent face with a funny smile with her tongue
sticking out in front of Steve�s TV screen, the girls and the boys emotions
rose with pain and sadness, but a little laughter because of her face.
In the screen, she was wearing was she had on when Lissy, Nick and Lisa had
found her. She was wearing all white. Her three-quarter V-neck shirt, her Nike
sport pants and her white platform shoes. When Steve saw her in that outfit, he
smiled. Every time she wore that suit, he always think that she was an angel
because of all that white on her, but with a little mix of devil because of her
attitude. Soon no one talked, because they were ready to found out what Buffy
had got to say about her suicidal action�
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Hey Guys...
Well I guess that the reason why you guys are watching this it�s because
I�m not here anymore. In some way you may also have tones of questions running
around your head also.
Especially you, Stephen James Sculthorpe or may I say Pumpkin Head!
Before I continue on what you want to hear that I didn�t kill myself for
Justin. Dude, I didn�t want to waste my life
or time with him if you know what I mean! Let me say that please don�t feel
bad, upset or angry
I�m positive that I�m happy now where I am... in heaven! Hopefully!... �
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Dude�
she will never stop to have that sense of humor�, TJ said.
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Yeah�
that was I love about her�, Steve said before they continued on watching the
tape.
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You know all of you are my closest friends and I know that we shared loads stuff
together, but it depend what also.
You may think that I had told all of you my secrets, but there are a lot more
that you don�t know�
what I�m living, what do I feel inside and what I had done. And believe me�
You guys aren�t gonna like this one bit�
That�s all I could say and warn you� �