Chapter 1

Charisma enjoyed her life to the fullest, even though they were a lot of problems and obstacles in her past, but she over come it all. She was very well known around her school, but never called herself as "The Most Popular", because in her school the most popular ones were mainly snobs. She preferred as "The Social Girl". She knew everyone and talked to anyone around school just because of she was friendly and honest. But this girl does have some bad qualities and the main one was saying something direct but never though it could hurt someone's feelings after saying it. Sometimes she didn't think before saying it, but it mainly happens when she was really pissed off.

Even though with all her joy and happiness, there were some down fall in her relationship with her boyfriend, Matthew. Beside the fact that he was a great guy with an outstanding personality and she loved him very much, but for a while she couldn't understand him anymore. His mood were changing, he always had a neutral face which sometimes she got the impression he doesn't love her anymore. Also she noticed that he was hanging around a lot more with his best friend Rachel. She knew that Rachel and him was best friend and sometimes he had a neutral face when they were friends and when they started going out. It was face was getting more and more neutral and hanging out a lot more with Rachel.

Even people though that they were something going on between Rachel and Matthew, but she tried to ignore it even though it was hard. Charisma knew deep down that she to stood up and get the courage to talk with him about it. Beside the facts of everyone was telling, she knew for along time that there might be something. Even though she knew that Matthew and Rachel usually had a play fight. But she broke down into tears when her best friend, Destiny had told to her that one time, when she was in her yearbook meeting during lunch time, Rachel and Matthew were outside play fight, but started throwing grass into each other shirts.

Destiny felt awful when she saw her best friend crying in her arms and heard her heart snapped in two. Charisma did remembered some things that Matthew said to her, such as pinching each other at place were it shouldn't be reach. She remembered him telling her they were play fight and he ended up pinching her inner thighs, her butt and her ribs. She did had a talk with him about everything, about Rachel, asking him what he wanted and what she had in mind and asking him if he was a jealous about the fact that she have a lot of male friends. He denied everything and told her that he was happy that I had friends.

So one night, she couldn�t take it anymore and nearly explosed and almost destroyed everything in her bedroom. She was mad, sad, confused, frustrated and she didn't know what to do. The only thing on her mind was to write an e-mail to her distant sister who lived in Down Under Australia, Kathy.

She sat down near her computer desk and started to type everything was going on and how much she was hurting. For the first time, she felt that her heart was on the edge to shatter into millions of pieces. She knew that Matthew couldn't be blame 100%, because she didn't have enough proof, even though it was there, under her nose. But she loved him so much that she was blind by him. At the end of the mail she said�

"What do you think I should do? Talk to him again or just dumped him? Cause I can't stand the look on his face and sick of tired to trying and read his mind. Somehow I feel like I'm being screw over� Anyways Kathy, I'm sorry that I'm putting all this on your back and thanks for putting up with my shitty problems. Sometimes I don't even know how you can endure it. But thank you and seriously, I'm tired of being screw at and I don�' know why. I'm so piss off or sad or confused. Fuck, I don't even know what I'm feeling! Somehow I feel like he's playing me for a fool to the point, I cannot trust men anymore! I just want to get out of here FAST! But really, we're going to meet up soon and you're the one who should save up for Florida! =P Well talk to you later and thanks again�

~*Charisma *~

After reading her mail before sending it, she typed in the address [email protected] and pressed "Send" before she hopped into her bed and felt asleep, after getting all the anger and confusion she had inside.