Chapter 11
Steve slowly walked towards her, no concern on what he was doing, and though she would move away or even got up and punched him. But come to his surprise, the more closer he got, she didn't move a muscle like she was waiting for him to kill her with no harm none. In his eyes, all of sudden, she looked so fragile, so vulnerable, so delicate. He shook his head and looked back at her.
"Well sorry to ask then! I mean afterall, we do have history together... If you know what I mean.", Steve said as he sat next to her.
After that awkward moment, there was a long and very peaceful
silent between them, which was VERY weird. While Steve was getting more and
more curious about Buffy's behavior, she cried secretly without getting his
attention.
"Hey I know it going sound weird, but there something in your mind that kind of bothers you, right?"
"You really want to know don't you?", she asked.
"I didn't want to know, would I even bother to ask?", she looked up to him and meet his gaze. "And beside, if I didn't want to know,
I could have kill you right now."
Buffy sniffed and raise her eyebrow. "You got a point there..."
For that moment, Buffy felt an awkward and strange feeling rushing
through her body that she never felt before towards Steve, which made her feel
a little uncomfortable, but it a very good way. She was fighting with herself
if she should opened her mouth and said what was in her heart or just staked
him. But at that moment, she wasn't really want to fight him.
"It's just that�", she started before crying again.
"That what?", Steve asked calmly before Buffy cried out.
"I HATE MY LIFE! IT'S NOTHING BUT
BULLSHIT! I mean, I just want to
live a normal life without any evil creatures lurking every second of the day
or night! I just want to be in peace and live my life, like I want it to be. I
just want to worry about normal things. Boys, school and fuck even ZITS! My
mom's at the hospital right now fighting for her life. My dad's going through a
nervous breakdown cause of my mom's condition. Andy is growing up without
having his big sister around to help him with his problem or even bonding with
him like other sisters/brothers relationship! And what's killing me is the fact
that my parents still doesn't know that I'm a fucking Slayer and that I might
die, before them! I'M TIRED STEVE! I'M FUCKING TIRED! I JUST WANT THIS TO BE
ALL A NIGHTMARE AND WAKE UP THE NEXT DAY! I JUST WANT TO LIVE NORMAL!"
After the confession, Buffy broke down in tears and started to
wept even more louder and uncontrollable, which seemed like eternity. But at
the same time, Buffy thought she just made a very big mistake by telling her
number one enemy about her pain and anger inside her. But the unthinkable
happen, Steve put his right hand on her left shoulder and made her turn around.
She looked deeply into his eyes. Something she haven't done before. For once,
Buffy saw compassion in Steve's eyes, she felt comfortable around him for the
first time in seven years. In those deep brown eyes, were fill with something
she didn't quite know.
Steve brushed her cheeks and wipe away the tears from her eyes. He
kissed her on the forehead, before she lowered her head down on Steve's chest
and slowly cried. He surrounded his arms around her and rocked her from side to
side. He rested his chin on the top of her head and slow caressed his finger
through her soft and dark hair, while giving her the biggest hug ever as he
whispered sweet and comfort words for her. As Buffy closed her eyes, she forgot
every little bad things about Steve. She put her arms around him and just
listen to his breathe until the rest of the night.