October
10, 2003
I woke early this
morning slowly dragging myself to the end of the bed checking in the homemade
Incubator. She was still alive amazing! I wasn’t sure if she would pull through
the night or not. I opened the thing gently, and touched her soft fluff, the
baby was born so early that her fur wasn’t fur yet, it was this fluff, the kind
of fluff that a cat has after it’s been blow dried after a bath. She looked so
peaceful and happy there. I looked to where I had put an ice chest full of milk
so sterile that it wasn’t funny, and a small bowl, I knew this little girl was to small to even suck on anything. Believe it or not, I was
using an medicine dropper to give her the milk. I’d
give her a little bit, then help coax it down her throat but gently using two
hands in a circular motion to get it to go down right, and repeated this every
half hour or so, then just as I would a full term baby, pat her back to make
sure no air was stuck. This child was so small that the receiving blanket that
I had her in went around her three time. I laughed at that, well at least she
was warm that way, and she seemed to like it. I also sat there talking to her.
A knock came at my
door, I answered telling them just a minute, I
wouldn’t let anyone open the door with her box open. I was keeping the room
warmer then it should be as well as keeping the germs out the best that I
could. After placing her back in the basket, and closing the lid, I checked to
make sure that her bed was still on, and at the right tempters. Then headed outside of the room to join the rest of the group.
“Mamma,
Kura alright?” I smiled and picked Elliot up, He couldn’t quite get her name right.
“Yes, Sukura made it through last night, but she has a long long road ahead of her.” I told him thinking back to when
Ursa had once said that Barbic’s were tough, and I was believing it to be true
as of this moment, I could see the Barbic side of that newborn cub fighting at
full speed as hard as she could to join the rest of her brothers, and sister
out here.
“Tanni,
I want you to help Darcy for a little while, I’m going out for a little bit, Sukura
just ate, and should be fine for a little while still. I want to see if I can
find out where her mother was coming from, and see if I can get some answers to
how and why she died like that.” I turned to the younger ones, and back to Tanjia,
“I don’t want anyone
of you near my bedroom while I’m gone, I want the baby
to rest as much as she can.” Turning back to Darcy, “I’ll be back before her
next feeding, and things, so I won’t be long.” Darcy nodded and started on her
book again, I smiled, knowing that everything was in good hands. I took one of
the horses so that it would take so long, after about ten minutes of looking, I
sighed and headed back, I really didn’t want to be out here and away from that
infant at this moment, and decided that I would be able to look some other
time, and that it didn’t really even matter, since the little one was here, now
anyways and it still wouldn’t be able to bring her mother back. So I headed
back home. I knew that Ulisa would have to know about the infant so that I had
the claim on Sukura. I then began to think about how
I was going to tell her about what happened and the little one’s arrival.