March
26, 2004
Darcy sat by the
river of our little campsite just staring into it, I watched her as she let her
fingers dangle in the water, I knew that in this place the water would be warm
enough for her. Could hear her start to sing a little bit. Something I had
never heard her do, she sounded like an angle that was for sure,
~This is the air I breathe, This is the air I
breathe, Your holy presence, Living in me~
I heard her start, I she knew of the faith that I hold so dear to me,
and many times I had told her of the love that he gave to us, other things but
never thought she had heard me. But I was hearing this Nothing could express my
joy in hearing this. I listened to her for more
~This is my daily bread, This is my daily
bread, Your very word, Spoken to me. And I ... I'm desperate for you, And I ...
I'm lost without you~ Not wanting to ruin it I stayed back knowing what that
kind of time meant to me. I could hear her pretty well as it was.
~This is air I breath, This is
air I breathe, Your holy presence, Living in me, This is my daily bread, This
is my daily bread, Your very word, Spoken to me.~ By this time I walked over to
her tears were in her eyes as I headed over to her.
“Mamma?” She said as I sat down with her.
“It’s alright sweetheart,” I told her gently took her into my arms and
let her talk to me.
“Am I really forgiven for what I did to the others?”
“Yes by me and Gum both as well as your brothers and sisters, and your
Aunt, what you did can be over looked now and we can move on.” I told her
smoothing out her hair.
“Where did you learn to sound like that?”
“I don’t know I never tried it before.” She told me.
“Well I think its beautiful would you do me a
favor and sing the rest of it for me?” She nodded.
~And I ... I'm desperate for you, And I ... I'm lost without you, And I
... I'm desperate for you
And I ... I'm lost without you , And I ... I'm
desperate for you, And I ... I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you, I'm lost without you, I'm lost without you
(father), I'm lost.. without you
This is the air I breathe, This is the air I
breathe~ She finished.
“You Darcy I like it, don’t hold back like that, let the heavens hear
you sing it out with
all your heart I know you want to.” She nodded.
“It’s just so hard to, I mean look at what I did.”
“I know but as your mother I forgave you when it happened I knew that
wasn’t the real you, something was going on. I know I can’t take the pains of
anything away, but I can help you and we can work on them together. “
“Promise?” I nodded as I kissed her forehead,
“You know it, cause that’s what one does when they love their children
they help them see their troubles through and that’s what I’m going to do. Help
you.”