March
17, 2004
Waking up beside my
son, I looked to see if there was any changes. Nothing
not even a small change. I was surprised to see that I
had an extra one sitting by me at that moment as well. I looked to Ulisa
without an expression on my face and said,
“Ulisa, maybe you
can get her to eat, she hasn’t since she got here.”
“I’ll eat I know my
son’s alright.” I told them looking to the child. Taking his hand I said.
“I will not leave
his side for anything, not even if Gum himself appeared before me. I’m not
doing anything that takes the attention away from him.” I said before humming a tune for him to relax
both my nerves and his. While I was stroking his hair, both Ulisa and Grubbi
tried to get me to do something. I stayed in my seat and held onto my son’s
hand.
“Mamma, you hold me
too?” I nodded seeing my daughter walking over to me. Picking her up I asked
her how she was feeling at the moment.
“Better, Is Chace
better yet?”
“Not yet Princess.”
I told her kissing her forehead and rocking her.
“You don’t hurt
angel?”
“I do but I want to
be with you, Mamma.” I sighed again and held her close smiling a bit I held her
a little tighter to me.
“Mamma,
you sad?” Looking at my
daughter I sighed,
“Baby, I’m not going
to lie to you. Yes Mamma’s sad.”
“Cause Chace might
die?” I nodded.
“Yes Baby, he might.
We’re trying to fix him so he doesn’t but it’s a chance.” Kenya looked at me
and the the others.
“I know what that
means, he goes away and not come back. Cause that would mean he’s been killed
my sister, just like the THEY did with my other Mamma.” she told us looking
into my eyes. “But I know he not die, to silly to
die.” She told me leaning into me.” I smiled at her trying to fight back the
tears.
“Kenni do me a favor, go play with Timmy for a bit.” Shacking
her head no, she clutched onto me tight.
“Alright you don’t
have to go, But maybe Ursa needs your help with
something. “Missy URSY! Mamma said you
might need my help.” The child called walking down the hall.