April
24, 2004
Ursa came in early the next morning, her
future granddaughter Ulisa right behind her
"What’s going on?" I asked still
have a sleep
Ulisa has someone for you to talk to
"Who?"
ulisa
merely nods and looks directly behind Selena
I looked behind and seen a Gummi not too much
older than I my mouth dropped, "Jewels?"
the ghostly figure
behind her nodded
I stared in disbelief. "What,
who....." I stammered not sure of what to say
It seems I was needed, Selena
"what can I do
for you Jewels?
What are these thoughts going through my
sister's mind about
nothing their nothing
I know you better than that
Nothing's wrong
Jewels narrowed her eyes, "I can see what
goes through your mind. I don't like my sister cutting herself down like this
what do you mean? I'm
not cutting down on myself
yes, you are. all these "I'm not worthy" "I'm not worth
it" thoughts...
I swallowed, so
its true you know
Jewels said simply, "no...it's not. My little sister is none of those things and I
will not have her thinking them
yes it is
Jewels said simply, "SELENA MARIE WALKER
GUMMI! LISTEN TO ME AND LISTEN GOOD!"
I looked up at her stepping back
"do you trust your
sister?"
"yes"
"Didn't you always trust what I
said?"
I only stated the truth
Answer me...do you trust what I say? Didn't
you trust what I said?
I trust what you say
Then why do you not trust me now?
I do trust you, but the words are true,
Selena...why do you believe them? I don't want
you to say cause they're true. I want you to tell me
when you started to believe them and why
I don't know whelm I started
think...i want you to think and remember for me, sister
I really wish I could remember but I can't
well, did you believe
it when you were 4?
I don't know
did you believe it
when you started building your home?
I don't know
you do, sister and I
know. Do you really distrust me this much?
I truly don't know when it started
but sister, if you
are not listening to what I'm saying...how do i know
you trust me?
I am, but i really
couldn't tell you when
cause I don't
remember
tell me this then:
did I ever make you feel worthless? ever?
no
did our captors?