My whole life I have said to myself.. suicide is the wrong thing to do. It's not worth it, all the problems you have can be fixed. Now when I think about it.. There is no one here, there is no one to turn to no one to help me. There is only one way to feel better.. end it all... As i'm sitting here looking at the blade.. I think back on my life.. the 14 long years, These past 2 years are the only years that have meant something. Made me realize a lot. Expierienced a lot, felt so much There is something wrong with me now, there is no way to be happy anymore No way for me to feel like i'm someone I don't know who i am or what i'm trying to become. I take the blade.. slice the skin slowly.. watch it bleed.. my sorrows are flowing out of my body.. my blood is leaving.. my life is ending.. why is it that my life has been filled with pain... why must I end it now because I can't go on.. to late... this is the end. |
What should I do: People don't understand, what I'm going through, no one f�cking understands, What should i do? Should I go on living my life, pretending I'm ok, Should I go on hiding the truth, or not live another day? I don't think I can hide it, I hate my f�cking life, now the blood trickles down my hand, and i drop the knife, I face the much waited escape, now i don't long to die, because i am dead, with out regret, just a star in your night sky. |
Why do I wanna kill myself Why do I wanna die When you told me not to do it Your compassion made me wanna cry Did you really love me Do you really care Please try to tell me This confusion i cannot bear Do u think this is a joke? Just a sick and twisted game No my friend this is reality Or at least that's what I claim My life is going crazy Time is running out You had better hurry But when you see me, don't bother to scream or shout Cuz I know you do not love me That is why I hafta die Just remember at my funeral I told you not to cry |
I am just that funny little girl, who has always made you laugh; the one who was always there for you when your world was torn in half. I am that girl, who always seems to smile, so you never knew what was wrong; or maybe you did, and were just in denial. You see me. That girl, with her world spiraling down. Yet, you still do not ask about her when you see her secret frown. I am that girl, with a joke to make your day, but when at home, all alone, I'm so depressed. Why won't this go away? So keep telling me your problems, and don't ask me mine. Just keep on thinking that I'm always fine. Yes, I am that girl. That will always care, and if there is someone who cares, I can't seem to find them anywhere. |
You stand there in a daze as blood drips from my veins as i fall to the floor and cry u just dont understand how bad i want to die as i scream because im in pain u wonder if im insane because u just dont understand me anymore u just dont understand the danger thats in store i dont need you to sit there and cry i need someone to understand why i do the things i do and all the pain ive been through i need someone to tell me my wounds will heal i need someone to tell me i'll be okay i'll be alright..if i dont end my life today i need someone.............to understand me |
I'm not gonna lie it does hurt a lil bit when I cut myself I like to see the blood drip I know there's something wrong with me a little screw displaced My brain fuel mis on empty when Istaart to shake I'm loosing all my blood now as it flows like a river Whoa! I'm turning blue and I'm starting to shiver They just uncovered my body, they're ready for the autopsy my friends and family want to know exactly what happened to me They'll never figure out what went wrong they'll never be able to see how I wasn't so strong Please help me I scream when they cut into me then I wake up to find it all a bad dream |
So many feelings inside me head because im thinking of you as im laying here in bed your the one i want your the one for me your the one that makes me happy your the one that sets me free with everything you say with everything you do all i think about is how bad im falling for you why cant i tell you how i feel? why am i pushing away? how come i never seem to find the perfect words to say? but i know the minute u look in my eyes youll see all these feelings im trying to disguise |
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