I Want to Sleep


falling falling ever close
the past is rising up to greet me
never will it go away
always coming night to day
it seeps into this breain of mine
casting darkness everywhere
everything i see is lost in black
darkness surrounds all that i see
cannot escape can't seek relief
the past is now alive in me
and as i fall into this void
falling falling endlessly

the world is black
i can't go on
i'm too depressed
to live this life
forever this 
is killing me
i hate this life
i hate this world
i cannot think
i cannot dream
i want to die
i want to sleep

what is it we think we see
when we are alone dreaming
what would it be like to live
to live without ever dreaming
endless pointless going on
nothing there to ever find
why is it i live this life
alone afraid to be alive
scared of everything i do
gone in thoughts as lost as me
thoughts of what my life could be
only dreams unfortunately

the world is black
i can't go on
i'm too depressed
to live this life
forever this 
is killing me
i hate this life
i hate this world
i cannot think
i cannot dream
i want to die
i want to sleep

i hope one day there'll be a light
even just to see the void
the void into i fall forever
trapped forever in this bleak life
never to one day climb out
only to forever be blind
even a blind man walking the earth
enjoys this world for more than i
for beauty has been lost in me
like a friend whos long departed
walking slowly lonely dead
i don't know where my steps head

the world is black
i can't go on
i'm too depressed
to live this life
forever this 
is killing me
i hate this life
i hate this world
i cannot think
i cannot dream
i want to die
i want to sleep

Time it seems to take so long
just to get through a single day
only then to reach my bed
and lie awake a tortured soul
waiting always for the night
to come and swollow my woes away
the comfort of the darkness seems
to kill the hopelessness of the void
and so i wander endlessly
trapped in a world not made for me
a blind man's lonely dream am i