Lost Loves

A little brat... so stubborn and unruly,
A little girl... so sweet and innocent,
A little submissive.. giving all and totally,
A little princess... prancing and beautiful,
I lost so many things with the lost of you.
    for princessa

We met in secret, hidden from the jailor that kept you ensnared in gloom,
you gave your all to Me our first encounter.. surprising us both with the raw joy of it,
whatever you first intended... I know the bond between us was real,
I wanted to free you from your prison and enfold you in My love and need of you..
you tell Me you know you would be happy, 
cared for, needed, safe and wanted... sharing a life with Me,
yet you refused that.. for fear for yourself, for your jailor?
you made your decisions... forcing Me to leave,
you trapped and unhappy in a cell of your decision.. and I lost and searching,
I know our love was real and will never understand this...
    for princessa

I entrusted you with My heart and soul,
and was shattered by your fear,
careless in your need, 
you cast aside the shards of Me, 
vanishing as they fell,
I'm hollow and empty,
awaiting your return.
    for silkie

I wish you all the happiness I wanted to give you, 
and can bear you no ill will,
you made a choice... I understand,
Someday you may realize what you rejected,
and possibly know My love for what it was,
but that love will have been buried by pain and time,
forgotten by all save you and I.
    for silkie