| You know for most of my life I have heard where theres a will theres a way, so although this may never happen. I have the will and I am trying to find the way. It�s like that day back after I lost my first baby, if I wanted to just give up I may as well order my coffin right now because I would not be living for what I want but for what everyone thinks I should do. I don�t agree with the jobs everyone takes but I would never tell them not to do it. I don�t agree with the places some people live, but I don�t find reasons for why they should move, if they are happy I believe no one should. My best advice is do not surround yourself by people with negative feelings and opinions on what you are doing, find the people that support you weather they agree or not, that is unconditional love, if it ends it will have ended on terms my heart could live with, terms my mind will not question everyday of my life and if someone can not understand that, I will not try to make them. I will move on go forward and do what I feel is best for me not them. What you feel if you have lost a baby is not foreign to other woman, it�s just we do not have a spot light on us pointing us out. I never would have known that had I not started this search for help. I through my life weather I be successful at it or not have always tried to help people. I also would love to be there for anyone who needs to just talk to someone who will not say , its wasn�t meant to be, or something would have been wrong anyways. I mean who can really say that? I want them to give me the lottery numbers next. So if anyone needs an friendly ear, I am here. My e-mail address is [email protected]. I can be reached there. And I will always answer you, I don�t have all the answers, hell I don�t have any answers, maybe that�s what makes it so hard for woman like me, we want the instant answer and there is none nor may never be. Just don�t let go of your dreams. It is true where there�s a will there is a way��I have lost 10 babies and had 4 surgeries and I have not gone through being poked and probed and whatever else my poor body has gone through to just say I am done. Time is not on my side and it is my only enemy I can only hope I beat the hourglass. Much luck and best wishes to any of you trying to have a baby. Lori [email protected] |