Title: Killed by Love
Author: Secret Art
E-mail: [email protected]
Date: 11th March 2004
Category: angst, AU, *WARNING* character death, suicide, murder
Pairings: Sam/Jack
Spoilers: none
Summary: What happens if you live in a world where breaking the rules is a crime punishable by death?
Feedback: can only make me better
Disclaimer: Stargate Sg-1 and its characters are the property of Stargate (II) Productions, Showtime/Viacom, MGM/UA, Double Secret Productions, and Gekko Productions. This story is for entertainment purposes only and no money exchanged hands. No copyright infringement is intended. The original characters, situations, and
story are the property of the author.
Author’s note: Don’t know where this came from, just something I had to write to get it out of my system. This fic deals with suicide, murder and character death, so please don’t read it if it will upset you too much.
Killed by Love
By Secret Art
"You Bastard!" I scream, pulling out my gun and pointing it straight in his face.
"You killed him."
It had started out just like every other day. Waking up in bed next to the man I love, sharing a quick kiss before setting off in our separate cars to the base. We had been dating for almost three months, secretly of course, not even Janet or Daniel knows. We felt it would be safer that way, so that when we got caught they won’t be punished with us.
I walked into my lab, checked on the experiment I’d set up last night, and read through today’s memo, reminding us that there was going to be a presentation in the gate room tonight at seven, with special guest Senator Kinsey. Bet Jack can’t wait.
At lunch I go to the mess hall to meet with the rest of SG-1 and Janet for lunch, and that is when the day starts to get strange, because Jack isn’t there.
"Where’s the colonel?" I ask, trying not to sound too concerned, as Jack never misses the chance of food.
"Last time I saw him he was talking with Kinsey in his office." Daniel tells me, and I feel my heart beat slightly faster, that cannot be good.
"Oh, ok" I reply, try to sound as if I’m not bothered when in fact I’m terrified that Kinsey knows about Jack and me, and is going to want to set an example of the two of us.
As soon as I can I race to Jack’s office, but peering through the window I can see that it is empty, and my heart beat get as little bit faster.
I walk back to my lab, not paying much attention to the preparations for tonight’s presentation, wraped up in my concern for Jack.
I arrive at my lab, close and lock the door, and ring his mobile. Getting his voice mail I leave a message.
"Hi colonel, it’s Carter, just phoning to see where you are as you weren’t at lunch."
I hate having to refer to him as ‘colonel’ in a phone call, but we can’t run the risk as our phone calls might have been tapped, scary and stupid as that sounds.
By five o’clock, I’m ready to head out of the base, but I still haven’t heard from Jack, so I go to check whether Daniel, Teal’c and Janet have seen him. Getting a negative response from all three, I decide to go to his place first to see whether he’s there.
Pulling up in my car outside his house I can tell that no one has been back all day, the newspaper is still on the porch.
Driving to my place I get out, noticing immediately that my hall light is on. ‘That’s weird’ I think out loud, ‘I didn’t leave any lights on’.
I walk to the door, getting more scared and concerned every second, as the door has been forced open, and walking into the hallway I drop my bag.
The whole house has been ransacked, furniture turned over, the TV smashed, books thrown all over the place.
Walking through the house I find the same thing in every room, until finally I reach the bathroom.
I open the door slowly, and turning on the light I scream.
The whole room is full of blood, and Jack is sat there in the bath, bullet hole through his heart.
I stand there, not moving, not thinking, frozen in time, looking at my dead, murdered lover.
Then time starts up again, and I race to the bathtub, feebly checking for any signs of life, knowing that I won’t find any. I collapse to my knees by the side of the bath, screaming my pain, tears streaming down my face.
I finally move, and looking at the clock I see that it is almost seven o’clock, and I know what I have to do.
Not bothering to change clothes I climb back into my car and drive back to the base, shaking the whole time, my mind stuck on the scene of him lying in the bathtub, surrounded by his own blood.
Arriving at the base, I storm down to the gate room, getting worried glances from the few personnel not at the presentation. It is only then that I stop to think how awful I must look, make up running, eyes red from crying, tears still pouring down my face, my clothes covered in his blood. I laugh, a hollow laugh that causes the scientist walking past me to speed up in the opposite direction.
I reach the blast doors, and taking a deep breath to steady myself I walk in, straight up to the podium where General Hammond, my dad and Kinsey are standing.
"You Bastard!" I scream, pulling out my gun and pointing it straight in Kinsey’s face.
"You killed him."
General Hammond looks shocked, and I hear gasps coming from the crowd behind me, but all I’m interested in is Kinsey, who is smiling at me.
"I see you got our gift," He says in that happy smiley voice.
"Why?" is all I can say, shaking my head, my anger gone, replaced by hopelessness.
"You broke the rules." Is all he says, but it’s enough.
We knew the risks we were taking when we started our relationship, but we never honestly thought that they would resort to death.
"I hope you understand now," he continues, "That we take rule breakers very seriously. It’s not like you can plead ignorant or anything, you and him knew the rules, you decided to break them, and you have to pay the price."
I look at General Hammond and my dad, and the look in their eyes tells me exactly what I didn’t want to know.
"You knew" I scream, pointing the gun in the General’s face, then my dad’s before turning to face the crowd.
I can spot Daniel, Teal’c and Janet in the crowd, and the shock on their faces, and most of the faces in the crowd tells me that they have worked out what happened, but at least they didn’t know what happened before it happened.
Looking between the crowd and the people stood on the podium I walk back to the wall, the gun swinging round in front of me to keep them away.
"I loved him," I cry, not knowing what I’m doing, not really caring.
"I know honey, I know," Dad replies.
"How could you let them?" I yell, pointing the gun at Kinsey to show exactly who ‘them’ was.
"We didn’t have a choice." That was General Hammond, ever the diplomat.
"No choice," I repeat, and I know that I don’t have a choice. Well I do, but they are both going to end up with the same result. I can try to shoot my way out of here, but I know that I won’t last two minutes, or I can save them the trouble.
Decision made, I smile, looking over the people that I call friends, before turning and…BANG… shooting Kinsey right in the heart.
I hear everyone gasp, and knowing that I only have seconds before they start shooting I look at my friends, and catching their eyes mouth ‘I love you’ before turning the gun on myself. Hang on Jack, I’m coming.
BANG