I could still remember that sweet smile of his. The smile that I couldn�t help but blush at. How could he not realise what he�s doing to me? Can�t he see how much I care about him? But I knew it�d never happen... Things were too complicated between us. I hated myself for thinking otherwise. It�ll never happen, I kept telling myself. It can�t happen.
     The heart wants what it can�t have, I heard once. My heart was foolish. I knew better than to let some guy get to me. There�ll be plenty of others... But how many would be like him?
     I had let him go once. It was my fault. I had my chance. I let him slip away. I put myself in this position. I gave myself this pain.
     I told him we�d be �friends�. Just �friends�. How stupid of me. Now I can�t even bare to be in the same room with him, knowing that I could�ve had him. That I could�ve been the one in his arms on cold nights. But no. I lost my chance...
     I only hope he�s happy now... With her. She�d be the one in his arms. But I couldn�t hate her... It wasn�t possible to. I could only hate myself.
     And I do. I could�ve had all that. But I had to do the �right� thing, and give him to her. She truly did love him. Probably as much as I do. She deserves him. She told him the truth. She was honest with him. While I kept my emotions bottled up inside of me. I guess I�ve learned my lesson now haven�t I? You really do only get one chance.