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It's time for me to get honest.
I have expressed my anger,
and my pain.
I've let it all out here
and looked at it
closely.
It all points back to me,
doesn't it?
Did I come into this
with my eyes open?
I did.
Do I understand,
I mean really understand,
your fear?
I do.
Do I know that growth,
all forms of growth,
are two steps forward,
and one back?
I do.
So, if I have this understanding,
is my anger,
and the way I express it to you
anything other than immature
and dishonest?
Am I not just King Baby,
wanting what I want,
when I want it?
So here I am,
with me,
tonight.
And I see that amends are not apology.
Amends demand
not only a sincerity in my heart,
but a desire,
a pledge,
to work hard
not to repeat such behaviors.
When you need me to back off,
I will tell you that I understand.
For I do.
I may point out
that we have tried this before,
but I will leave my impatience
out of it.
And most importantly,
when things don't go my way,
I will sit with you,
I will lay beside you anyway,
and not ask you to leave.
We will work this out.
I believe that.
But, I need to grow up a little here.
I need to recognize
your need for safety.
And I will.
Then we can begin to find goals
that we can work together
to achieve.
I love you.
Please forgive me.
Stay,
and see my changes.
Be my angel,
be my hero,
and I will work harder
to be yours also.
---Author unknown
