february 8, 2000

i just realized that i have been spelling the month february wrong for the entire month so far....please everyone browse my page a laugh at me. yes me and my mythical writing skillz. un bee leave able

i recieved an invitation to join a journal format called "the world year project". i'm totally in shock over this...the other members are all acomplished something or others and then there is me...woop de doo
but wow it feels like i just one an emmy or something...someone was actually looking at my journal and thinking that it was good enough to be included. wowzers

but on a sadder note...my bosnian connection stole from me yesterday.
i invited him over to watch a movie that i knew he would really enjoy and i left him in my room while i ran down to the norwegian store to buy some smokes....before he had left i had moved some of my duetsch marks around on my dresser and i had noticed that i had 3 one hundred mark bills...but when we got back from the movie there were only 2 sitting there.....i was so sad....there was no anger in my whole body...only saddness, because i knew that if he had asked i would have given the money to him.
i just realized exactly what he thought of our friendship. i thought i had made a contact for life. someone i would hook up with in some strange location and enjoy things only the way we could. but he was just using me and i see that now.
i knew i would never see the money i lent him again, and i was ok with that. but damn...to just take it from me. i feel so small and blank.


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