December 22, 1999
what do you do when an argument with a close friend can not be resolved. when your most intimate of confidants will never see things the way you do, and a wedge is drawn between the two of you.
it's strange. i have kept so much hope inside of me for her, because i love her like my sister and more. i have felt on many occasions that i would someday be with her the way that i longed to be. hope will give you the strength to wait for something forever. i have held so much hope for her.
i have thought that someday she would just wake up and realize that i was the one that she wanted to be with. that i was the one who waited for years to be with her.
do people just wake up and realize where they should be going in life. do things change that easy. maybe not.
but the religion thing will always be there.
i just feel like i'm not enough of what she is looking for. like she is looking for so much more then me, when i am looking for her.
eh...i'm a sap who imagines to much.