| 30 April 2002 11:52 pm Tuesday I cannot believe that I only have 3 days left of class. I have a grand total of 7 classes left of my college career. I have a bunch of papers and an exam, and I'm officially done with Ithaca College. I feel both extremely proud and very sad. I don't feel like I've done what I needed to do academically. It's not that I did severely poorly these past years, but I only realized my appreciation for learning and applying myself to class this year. But it's all over in 7 classes. Like, my ENTIRE college career is over. It started sinking in sometime last week, actually. I'm walking around campus thinking, these are the last few days I'm going to see the towers. I'm in class thinking, these will be the last few times I'll ever see these people. I went to Purity and realized it'd be my last time there (the store is kind of out of the way, and I can get ice cream in Wegmans, so I will likely not go back.) It's all very bittersweet. These are the places that've been part of my home for the last four years, and in three weeks it's over. For the most part I'm not horribly worried about not seeing many of my closer friends again. I'm pretty sure most of them will eventually end up in the same place I will, even if it's 5 years down the line. Most of my closer friends are going to end up in the entertainment biz, landing us all in Los Angeles eventually. Except maybe Rachel, but when she makes it as an actress I'm sure she'll be forced to film out there every once in a while. The person that it just breaks my heart to leave is Jen. She's like another Angela: during the early point in our relationship there was animosity, but after some time a meaningful friendship developed (yeah Asia Society!) and has been sustained. Now she's my go-to girl, someone I really trust and appreciate. I devote my Thursdays to her! And we only get three more together before she heads off to NYC. There will definitely be visiting, but not as often as we get now. It actually pains me thinking about life without her. She's the only one that I know will be geographicaly far away from me, pretty much permanently. Thank god for cell phones with no long distance. In any case, Jen, I love you to pieces and I can't even believe that it's all over so soon! Speaking of Angela... my girl came to visit me yesterday! She spent the night here to split her drive up to Canada in half. Poor thing had a horrid drive up here since 495 was closed. So she got here and we hit Wegmans for a couple things, and she was in awe of how big it was. I am going to miss Wegmans SOOOO much! Then I gave her a midnight tour of IC and Cornell. She actully made me walk on the suicide bridge at Cornell in the middle of the night when it was pitch black outside. I have this thing against heights, or more specifically the notion of falling from extremely high places, so I could barely make it a quarter of the way across before I turned my @ss right back around. We stayed up a while and I made a couple mini videos, and then we both left my house around 11 am. She'll be back up for graduation! Well, I suppose I should get back to studying. Senior slump is making my life he1l in trying to get my work done. I just need to get this done, and then that's it. *Wipes a tear away!* |
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