Break up
(First published in Studio)
1.
where have you been spending your nights?
No resurrection tricks this time old girl
Embalmed with your infidelity
Your indecency
The end of caring
You disappeared
The denial of years and memories
A box full of letters and words full of
nevers
Who ends such long and tainted love on
Thursday afternoons in phone boxes?
I mean, Who but you dear?
- 2/11/2000
2.
metaphors
This is surgery and a battleground and a
morgue
No anaesthetic this rusty knife my black
guts exposed
These crows hovering above the trench as
I grow thirsty
Paralysed I hear you zip the bodybag laughing as you leave
I’m dying girl, dying!
How far can we take these metaphors
Before they turn on us - self destructing
cliches -
And leave us with us the pain that poets
won’t exhaust?
- 9/11/2000
3.
and in this moment i know loss
She comes to me, the second time since
the sundering
Her earnest face more beautiful
Than I remember
The sad fullness Adults inhabit
His face and the terrible gnosis in her
eyes -
I want to die, I want to die
-16/12/00