The
Resurrection
No-one saw Jesus rise.
The turning point in all history -
After two nights wrestling things we’ll
never know
His body decaying in the musty tomb
The dripping water, the hard rock
The mice nibbling, the cockroaches crawling
In the dayheat, the flies who knew no
Sabbath
We assume it was when dawn came
That there was a moment
He passed from death to life
His body changed -
Did it shine?
Were angels standing around him?
What did he think when his eyes opened?
Was he surprised like the disciples?
Was he weary?
Did he have a headache?
Or was his new body past these things?
He may have lay a while
Staring at the rocks above him
Trying to make sense of it
But eventually he stood up
And probably then
The stone rolled away -
Angels again?
Or did it just roll, apparently unaided?
Regardless, he walked out of the tomb
Into the cold Sunday morning
Or at least we assume it was the morning;
Perhaps he rose a couple of hours earlier
- Still in the dark - stars shining in the
violet sky
And it was later, walking along a lonely
road
That he saw his first sunrise
The other side of death.
We’ll never know;
The turning point in all history
Death’s defeat, the firstfruit of our hope -
This newman stumbling out of a tomb
Into the morning light or the predawn
dark -
And no-one to see it, except perhaps
For some birds, flitting through the garden.
- Easter Sunday 2001; first published in
Studio
Poem Concerning the World
Oh, I saw the other side
Fought moustached trolls
Drank coffee roasted
On Columbian mountains
And grew estatic
Speaking in tongues
The world’s forgotten/
Their sound was rich like virgin soil/
I began to think in Atlantisese/ and
I couldn’t understand
I met Tailesin with his harp
We embraced like brothers
And I walked through a wet city at night
The flagstones were brittle
I wore a black trenchcoat
In my pocket was a bottle
Of Southern Comfort
There in the rain
I raised it to my lips
And it vaporated in my mouth
Sweet deep vapour warm like godbreath
I wanted this night to last forever
I willed Nietzche’s
We twirled on a carousel in the dark
She laughed/ her name was Claire
Lingering long/ she had no fear
Her passion met mine
I ran in the dawn
Through a pine forest
I tried to remember the scent
Tried to
Etch
It
In
My
Memory
Always.
- 7/4/2001
Two Theologies of Lila
It’s too dark to see the landmarks
And I don’t want your good luck charms
I hope you’re waiting for me
Across your carpet of stars
You’re the night Lila
You’re everything that we can’t see
Lila, you’re the possibility
- Morphine, ‘The Night’
1.
Lila exists only in motion - she cannot be held
I’ve seen you in the sunset
I’ve watched you sitting in the swirling
mists
Once in China
I followed the Wall
Around
Looking for you.
(Sometimes you appeared in the sky
A mirage in the shimmering heat
Urging me on.)
You’re fireworks
A half arched rainbow -
If I could ever reach you
My touch would change you
The price of possibilty
Is never having;
The cost of possessing
Is the end of hope.
(What counts
- Where hope and having meet -
Is at that tangent
Where our lips touch for the first time
And you taste of white flowers
In a French field)
2.
Lila as eschaton: living in the now but not yet
I’ve discovered (after a lot of pain)
That you’re fine wine.
The weight of that moment
- The second we first kiss -
Is proportionate
To the hours, days and years
I’ve dreamed it.
What a cruel beauty:
My hope the light from stars -
Travelling years through the void
Before it reaches you
Standing at night on that hill in the woods,
The one you’ve been waiting on
Waiting with those demon eyes
Those sculpted cheekbones
Your harp on your lap
And your paintbrush by your side.
-3/4/2001
The Uninnocent
The sadness of the uninnocent, the spoiled:
I sat among colourful balloons in the
nightlit yard
Listening to a band enthusiastic.
Christmas lights were trailed through the
trees
White clothed tables were spread with party
fare
And on the grass the brightly dressed
32 year old divorcee danced laughing
It was a different dancing,
A different laughing.
Emptied of possibility, the dance of the
spent
Of one who has already had and been had
And long passed into a different, empty
world
Full of mere mouthing, the memories and the
mares;
As if youth can be recaptured!
Life is a hymen, soon torn
And we must live out our days, guilty and
regretting.
- 30/12/2000