| I Want You (2001 revised version) by: Angel Temptress Dedicated to: Any SG slasher� always remember that you�re not alone out there! ;) Thanks to: Those who encouraged me to pursue this fic idea � esp since this is my first public attempt at slash, the support was nice :) Inspiration: Evidently, from the title of the story, you can tell that it was initially inspired by the song � I want you�, but more specifically, the music vid for the song� read on and you�ll see what I mean. *** Intro "Ooh, I want you, I don't know if I need you, but, ooh, I'd die to find out..." The words of the song played over and over in Daniel's head. Vivid scenes of the newly released video that they had finished filming today, replayed over and over again. He poured himself a glass of cold wine, attempting to clear his mind. "Ooh, I want you, I don't know if I need you" Daniel placed his empty wine glass in the sink and closed his eyes. Darren looking up - Daniel took a deep breath, Darren looking down - he scrunched his eyes tighter together, Darren looking at him - he began to sweat, Darren arching an eyebrow - Daniel began to pant, Darren licking his lips - he pounded his fists on the counter. (For God's sake, man! Get a hold of yourself!) he thought desperately. Walking into the living room, he flipped on his stereo and popped in one of his favorite Seal cds. 'Prayer for the dying' began, and he sat down on the couch to lose himself in the music. For the first minute of the song, he actually fell deeply into its melody, but as soon as the chorus started, his mind was quickly interrupted by the lyrics of 'I want you'. The hypnotizing sound of Darren's voice lulled him into a trance, and before he knew it, he was swaying his head and tapping his feet to the song in his head. Then suddenly, as if snapping out of his magical lullaby, the sound of Seal's voice hit his ears, and he then realized that the song on his cd was ending. Frustrated, he stood up quickly and turned the cd off, and the room grew silent once again. "Darren, if you only knew... God, if you only knew how much I want you" he said to himself in exasperation, secretly wishing that Darren could hear him. Then, covering his face with his hands, he began to sob, his tears falling down his cheeks. "If only you knew..." Chapter 1 It was 8:45am when Darren woke up. Slamming off his ringing alarm clock, he slowly sat up on his bed and rubbed his eyes. "Bloody hell, why can't I just sleep in for one day?" he said, scratching his head. He followed his usual daily routine: brushed his teeth, took a shower, got dressed, fixed his hair, (which took about an hour) grabbed something quick to eat and then called Daniel. "Rise and shine, Danny boy. Another new and promising day awaits us" Daniel yawned loudly. "Ya, I bet... well, I'm almost done getting ready. All I gotta do now is brush my hair and then I'm outta here" Darren chuckled. "Well, that shouldn't take you too long, huh, Danny? Ok, I'll see ya at the studio soon. Drive safely. Ciao" and then he hung up. Picking up his bottle of Calvin Klein's Obsession, he squirted himself lightly several times with it and then left the house. ** "Ok guys, now just turn a little to the right... ya, that's it... good... now hold that for a sec...perfect" CLICK. Both Darren and Daniel were blinded by the ever-so-bright flash of the camera. (Crap!) thought Daniel. (One more picture and I'll go blind!) "Just a few more to go, ok guys? Just hang in there while I go and get a new film" said the photographer as he left the room. "Oh my God" whispered Darren. "He's trying to kill us, I swear" Daniel wiped his sweaty forehead and nodded. The photographer then came back into the room, and both of them resumed their previous poses. "Alright, now just loosen up a bit... maybe even smile for me... ya, a smile would be nice. Come on, Darren, don't look so serious..." Darren sighed and then did his best to force a smile. "Excellent, now just hold that for a sec... great!" CLICK. Darren rolled his eyes in annoyance. He felt like a barbie doll, being forced to move a certain way and make a certain face. The photographer stepped away from his camera and approached them. Taking Daniel's left arm, he placed it on Darren's shoulder, and then stepped back to observe his new creation. "Looks great, guys... now, do either one of you feel uncomfortable like that?" Daniel remained still, staring at the photographer blankly. The feeling of having his arm resting on Darren's shoulder was certainly nothing to complain about. Darren glanced at him. "Daniel, are you comfortable?" He just nodded quickly in reply, making no expression whatsoever. "Fine then, just hold that pose while i take this shot, alright? 1-2-3" CLICK. After the flash, Daniel still remained posed; his arm on Darren. Darren looked at him strangely. "Ok, Danny, the photoshoot is over now. You can take your arm off of my shoulder..." Awkwardly, Daniel slid his arm off of Darren and then looked down at the ground. The photographer looked from Darren to Daniel, attempting to make sense of what was happening. "Are you guys ok now? We're finished for today, so you can go home or wherever you're headed to..." "Alright, thanks again, Jerry. We'll see you again tomorrow, same time, right?" asked Darren. "Uh, ya... see ya then" he replied and then left the room. Daniel looked around the studio and then at Darren. "Ok, Darren, I'll see you tomorrow" he said quickly, and then walked towards the exit door. "I'll call you tonight" said Darren with a smile. "Ok, bye" he replied happily and then walked out. ** The phone rang loudly, interrupting Darren's supper. Picking it up, he pressed the 'on' button: "Hello?" "Hello dahling, how are you?" "Oh, hello Colby dear, I was actually just in the middle of eating my home-made dinner" She laughed lightly. "*You* actually made supper all by yourself?" "Well, not exactly... but, I heated it up in the micro-oven by myself - aren't you proud of me?" he asked, smiling to himself. She giggled. "Of course I am, Dazzy! May I ask what gourmet meal you're dining on tonight?" "Macaroni and cheese a la Darren" he admitted proudly. Married for five and a half years, and only recently divorced from one another, Colby and Darren were still close friends, and in all the years that she had known him, he had never been one to cook. "I see... listen, I was calling to ask you how the filming for your new video went yesterday?" "Oh yes, the video! For I Want You, you mean?" "Well yes, unless there's another video that you guys filmed yesterday that I don't know about..." she said in her usual cheerful voice. "Ha ha, no no, it was just that one, and *believe me*, that was enough work by itself!" "I can imagine" she commented. "But, did you atleast *enjoy* yourselves during the whole process?" "Of course we did, Colby. It was actually quite interesting the way the director managed to capture a certain mysterious air to it... I thought it was gonna be more, well, poppy, I guess" She laughed. "Poppy? Another new word of yours?" He smiled. "Well, by poppy, I mean that I had pictured the video to be more bouncy and casual, you know?" "Hmm, yes. Well, I'm glad to hear that all went all for you, and I can't wait to see it on tv... what day is it airing?" "Uh... I think Nigel had told me that its very first airing day would be this upcoming friday, around 7:30" "Alright, I'll be sure to tape it! Well, I'll let you go now, Dazzy. Have a good sleep and say hi to Daniel for me, alright?" Darren sipped his pepsi. "I will, Colby. Night then, bye" "Good night, Darren" After he hung up the phone, he quickly finished eating his somewhat cold supper and then picked up the phone to call Daniel as he said he would. "Hello Danny boy, how are you feeling?" There was a sigh from Daniel, almost like a sigh of relief. "Oh, not too bad, Darren. How about you?" "Well, I just got a call from Colby, and she was asking me about the new video and all... you know, the usual Colby questions" he said with a friendly laugh. "Ya, so how is she doing?" "Good. And, she says hello to you, as always" "Alright, well tell her I say hi back whenever you next speak with her" he replied with a smile. "I will. Ah, dammit, tomorrow morning we gotta get up early again... arg! I'm getting so damn sick and tired of not being able to sleep in anymore" he said in a voice that Daniel found to be angry, yet cute at the same time. "Ah Darren. I've gotten used to it by now, why haven't you?" he asked, laughing. "Heaven only knows" Daniel could then hear what sounded like footsteps that were presumably Darren's. "Where are you walking to, mate?" "Oh, I was just walking over to my stereo to play some U2 stuff, you know, to break the silence of the room..." "Oh, that surely surprises me, Darren" he said with obvious sarcasm. "What cd are you gonna play?" More footsteps, and then the sound of cd cases being moved around. "Ah hell, why don't I just play the greatest hits one..." "That's it, play *all* the songs in one" "Oh, can you hold on a sec, Daniel? I have a beep" "Sure" After about a minute, Darren's voice popped back on the line, startling Daniel. "That was Ben. He asked when our next band practice was, so I told him that you might know. So, he'll be calling you shortly" Daniel sighed. "Alright then, but good God, what do *I* tell him? I don't know when our next rehearsal is..." "Ha ha, well, mr. Jones, it's now up to *you* to decide. So, when you feel the need to rehearse, just let us all know..." "Very funny, Darren" he said with a smile. "Well, my line is beeping, and it's most likely Ben, so I'll see you in the morning, alright?" "Ok, Danny. Night, then" CLICK. Daniel talked to Ben for about twenty minutes, and then got off the phone with him to watch a bit of the X Files on tv; an episode he had already seen before. That night, before he went to sleep, his mind, once again, was invaded with several scenes from the video, images of Darren flickering through his mind. In a matter of seconds - that longing for him returned. The slow movement of his lips, those soft, full pink lips mouthing the lyrics of the song, and those astonishingly possesive eyes staring right at him, which was enough to get him sweating again. He turned over on his left side and looked at the clock on his night table: 12:36 am. By 12:45 he was fast asleep, and already dreaming about Darren: In his dream, he was back on the set of the new video with his electric guitar, standing only a few feet away from Darren, who was holding a microphone, looking at the camera, singing the song. His long black hair appeared to be made of the softest silk, random strands of it covering his dark blue eyes. His whole upper body seemed to shudder with each new breath that he took in the song, as his hands gently caressed the microphone stand, as if giving it tender loving care. Daniel wanted so badly to throw down his guitar, run up to him and wrap his arms around him in the tightest embrace. But since it was a dream, as usual, he found that he couldn't even take one step towards him. Frustrated, yet still captivated by the whole scene, he remained still, and watched Darren as he sung like an angel under the spotlight that surrounded him. When the song was over, Darren turned to look at him, and mouthed the words... the three words that Daniel had been longing to hear: "I want you". The alarm clock rang noisily, disturbing him from his wonderful dream. "Arrrggg!!" he exclaimed angrily. "I hate you!" he yelled at the bouncing clock that was laughing in his face. Quickly, he slammed it off, and threw it into the garbage - he had never really liked the sound of it anyway. He stretched in one slow movement, reluctant to get out of his warm bed so early in the morning. "Darren, Darren, Darren" he mumbled dreamily. "If only you could see my desire..." Remaining chapters to be uploaded asap... |