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Word by Word: waha- who, naha - our, deeyaha - mind, prachodayath - enlights our minds (or) to bring realisation in our minds, tat - that, devasya - Lord in the the form of light (not sun light), savithuhu - the one who created the universe, varenyam - the most high, bargaha - figure or form, deemahi - we meditate (or) pray. Meaning: The Supreme God head, who created the universe and all in it is in the form of light, he is the most high, the one who enlightens our mind that we would get spiritual realisation, that Lord in whom I meditate and worship. I used to think, why am I not worshipping the Lord who is the form of light. I had so many questions within me; I also believed that God can come in the form of a man and save mankind. Things started changing in my life when I joined RSS in my place, in the sense not an active member but I was with them, listening to them what they say. Of course, indirectly the teachings are to persecute Christians and Jesus Christ, I had so much hatred for this community, because they are converting people, changing religions, I hated this by all possible means. The Holy Bibles were distributed free in our schools, we used to tear the papers of the bible and play while raining. We used to sing songs commenting Jesus Christ. I had a zeal for my own religion, my father and mother and everybody were like that, against Jesus Christ and his teachings. My father on the other hand struggled in his business, we were affected financially, my father's friends cheated him, took his money. My father's situation went serious day by day; all the happiness in my / our life is lost. I stopped my studies and took up a job which paid me Rs.60 a day, about 60 men and women worked with me. Nobody would have liked to continue with such kind of a job, which paid less, going door to door. It is called Marketing research. I had found a group of people who would always be singing happily and smiling, even though they had more troubles than what I had. But, I was not supposed to sit with them, because they were Christians and namely, Pentecost Christians, who were considered to be very dangerous, who would mesmerize people, my parents and the Hindu community had told me. One night before Christmas celebration, I fell ill and my body was burning with very high temperature, I could feel the heat in my eyes. My father had advised me to sleep for the night, saying the next morning we could go and see the doctor as there were no round the clock doctors available. I prayed to all Gods, my own Gods and the God of Christian belief also, namely Mother Mary and Jesus Christ. The next day I felt fine, and I guessed God is true, and he lives, and I stopped smoking. When i had gone to the shop to buy a cigarette, something stopped me from buying it. I believed, it was Lord Venkateswara who healed from my illness (our own traditional God). For a week I never smoked or did any thing, apart from thinking about Gods identity, I started hating work. Then one day I happened to go and sit with the Christian group, and listened to what they would sing and talk. One sister by name Ms. Delsi told me to find a bible and search for myself, and ask God" who is true, He will answer you, there is no need to believe me" she said. I took it as a challenge and said let me ask God if He is there, let me go through the bible, which had escaped from my hands (I used to tear them). While traveling by train I decided to go home and then read the Bible, what it said? I reached home and took the Bible (New testament) for the first time and began to read book of Mathews, starting from chapter 1. When I read the verse which says "Emmanuel means God is with us". I stopped and started to think deeply and attentively. I found my heart was longing for the love of Jesus Christ. |