| spinning my life away can't always change chronic misery makes me fall into rain puddles muddy pools reflect me dirty the brightness radiats off your smile but distorted eyes can't see you shine Red lips Grasp for perfect words that fell out of my mouth like pennies on the floor scramble to pick them up ugly one little word etched into skin constant reminder of these dreary days its the scratches that bleed it was jst a mistake i swear just a bad dream I know they saw I feel so ashamed I've come so far to resort to this? awful behavior that causes more pain when I saw the eyes that knew of this thing my supposedly overcome addiction guilt made me want to weep I didn't because at the moment it felt right it's ugly I forgot maybe next time I'll find something better than carving ugly in me cracked and torn my pretty face my life is gone Hell is my only escape This burning hate, thats invaded me ts taken over everything my dreams distorted my heart is smashed against a mirror on the floor I don't see it beating anymore I wonder if I'm dead I can't feel if I'm still living it doesn't seem that way I'm going through the motions I'm dead I'm dead I'm dead |