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I feel like I have a million things to write but the words I come up with aren't fitting. you make me happy. I love being with you. I don't like the way I treat you some times. When I know I pull that stupid shit that just doesn't make sense I feel mildly disgusted with myself. I am not comfortable being happy for long periods of time. makes me panic like just waiting for something bad or think something is bad and I don't see then I end up just creating the problem. I know that I should just take it for what it is not make a problem I mean. It's stupid create a problem over happiness? wtf? and I'm sorry I try not to do that but habits are hard to get rid of. but I want too. for you so things don't get dramatic like before. strange how breaking up really ended up helping us. just don't hate me if I screw up sometimes
xoxo *leah |