| Time: 2:07 I went swimming today. Me and chris went to this nature perserve and its has this big sunken rock hole thing. It was really nice. came home, made dinner, read, and fell asleep. woke up to chris walkng in my room and vaguely remembering to tell him to come over after work. We talked and I thought he was mildly upset but he didn't say really. We smoked sat around and whatevered. Since that guy came over the other night I'm different. I don't think that was the only thing just that whole day. I'm just kinda in a whatever mood. Maybe it's because everything is so calm. calm always amkes me nervous if I haven't had it for awhile. I'm reading this book on cutting and for the most part I think this guy is pretty dead on. I find it interesting because I understand it and I use to do it. I don't so can think about it more real I don't have to justify it because I don't cut anymore just like the facts. The puppy is being really good tonight It isn't fair how I have to do the taking care of a dog that isn't even mine. Its sucks. I'm starting to get all attacheted. my parents are coming home tomorrow. I think at 16 I should have more something with my parents. they're never here they don't care about what I do I don't remember the last time I was in trouble I dont mind but it isnt normal *Leah |