| Time: 1:29 I slept all day. I feel like I wasted the whole day. I think the 5-7 hours I've been getting a night caught up to me. I was going to do something with chris but it didn't happen. he broke up with his boyfriend he was upset but i don't maybe in the long run it was good but in terms of what he wants and now it sucks ass. I think I'm just letting things happen and I'm just watching in a kind of whatever okay state. My mom is coming home from being in surgry no home more home aloneness for awhile I don't really mind the past few night my house has had people I really don't care for in it. I think I'm going through one of those I don't want to date anyone things I have no interest in anyone like that. due to being sick of games and bullshit. I'm a loser forever for people to take advantage of because I'm nice. the puppy is doing the little whimper that makes you feel so bad that you have to stop what your doing to go play with it. I don't know how to stop giving a fuck about other people and more about me. I haven't written in a long time maybe I need that.I think i'm going through this holy shit one more year of school I failed all my classes. in two months I'll be a senior and after that I'll be able to do what I want but wait what the hell do I want? crisis thing. I think thats my problem I have no interest in anything at the moment except smoking pot working and being out of my house.grrrr. I don't know how I feel about anything anymore *Leah |