| Time 3:33 so the past few days have been odd. I went to juilana theory tonight saw adam he didn't say anything kinda expected he played me I wanted what he said didn't think. so, after the show we came back because I have no parents here. Then some other people were there like the guy chris messed around with while we were dating and it's not even that the guy seems like drama and the kinda talk shit I'm better than you thing. I don't really like that so muchjust the guy in general or the chic I don't know if i'm being fare but I doubt they are either. chris isn't breaking u with his boyfriend that doesn't surprise me I wonder what brought a little weirdness on I think it was just the akwardness of the whole night considering. he said I was his bestfriend I can't say what the means exactly to me. we do fun stuff together and just hang out but i wonder why he even wants to be around me I can't say what makes me wonder. I think he likes his other friends better would and when they call and ask him to do something he'd rather be with them. whatever.Theres a moth just hanging on to the lamp and just keep staring at it I can't say why. I don't know what to think about anything my feelings heve been indesicive almost numb. I want thing to just happen and not worry and stop seeing all the people that make me uncomfortable and get them out of my head but thought I wonder about stick in my head and beging to be answered.I want worked in 3 days and all I do is smoke and stay up very late I need some type of schedule figure this out cuz I know it's not good need to lay down think tomorrow 4 am *Leah |