| Time: 11:59 So me and my sister are still home alone which would be okay if we had money and a car. It's crazy Its totally flooded where they are my dads car completely underwater. Today chris drove me to work I feel so weird asking him for things I don't like it because its like I still need him some. I don't. I also feel bad for the way I've been treating him I have said some mean things. Like I have to hurt him because he hurt me because losing me didn't do it. I hate admitting I'm wrong. I just need more time I guess. So I have a huge bottle of wine but I don't feel like drinking not since last time. I feel like writing and thinking. Today josh took a marker and drew this fake beard and stuff and people just kept staring some couple was like did you do that? I found it amusing I like him alot. Hes really impulsive and does all this crazy shit not giving a fuck. I don't know it draws me to him alot though but..hes had the same chic for two years which I think is totally cool. I dig relationships it's easier and safer in someways and harder in others. I wanna punk boy with a ride and a sweet kisses to give. but I could settle for less. Any takers? anyhow I'm a bit distracted and got some thinking to do. day off tomorrow going to a show have lots of fun and maybe dye my hair again. only time will tell *Leah |