| Time: 11:17 I had a day off It's been awhile. yesterday was weird I saw him and it was cool for awhile. it was nice you know just talking very the same but different. then he was like yeah I met someone I was just like I don't want to hear it I dont care but I did. Then he said it was the same night he broke up with me I kicked him in the shin. totally stupid but I wanted him to hurt because breaking up with me obviously didn't or it seems that way. I feel bad But christ not even a day went by. He said he needed some one I threw my drink. so immature. he left I cried hard. then we had an employee meeting I took a "quiz" on making sandwhiches bashed boys and laughed. Went over to a friends let off some steam drank and I talked with a guy who I kinda dated awhile ago this punk kid I hadn't seen much of since he graduated. I was impressed with him we kissed he spent the night but we didn't have sex. I didn't want to way to soon. He said I looked good he liked my red hair I felt less rejected. nothing more. woke up and we went to his house and ate breakfast played pool. I was hungover I threw up everything. not pretty went home and smoked it felt good. I fell asleep and just woke up. I feel better. Erin got home from the coast she met older boys and like them better than dumb freshman I can't blame her. I think tomorrow I'll call him say sorry say I need more time. I feel kinda crappy I wish it was easy and I could just forget him in that love sense I need a fucking car *Leah |