| Time: 2:14 so yeah this should be interesting. I'm sitting in my bestests house and just chilling and I'm feeling hella good right now. todays been the first day since it all went down that I've felt good like happy. can't think. I talked to him today. It seemed to me that I was bothered more than him but he doesn't exactly just show that kinda shit so I don't know. but something been bothering me all day I was reliving the break up with a friend who wanted to know so over a cig I told her the story(I don't even really smoke)he didn't feel right, it wasn't the same but that sentence launched a different conversation about how its about change that it's a fuckin rollercoaster and what not. thats been in my head all day. i worry about that kid. I actually like my job which I find weird. my head is swimming so many thoughts but I can't put them down. not being in a relationship is both liberating and scary at the same time. I'm more bothered by actions recently (mine his and everyone else's) than anything like I can handle it but it's just like what the hell is going I'm better than that and so are you what are we doing?... *Leah |