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Those who think they know it all have much to learn about life.

I have always found an ease and comfort with allowing my life's journey to pass from my heart through my mind into my fingers and finally stoned solid to paper for the discerning eye to read. There is often a reality to doing such a task. It's said that a true thought that can find its' way from the soul to word, whether written or verbal, will always find a path to reality.

_____UNCERTAINTY_____
I'm nearly uncertain of everything these days. I feel as though I have never had more control of my life. Yet at the same time I can't help but feel that i'm destined to do something opposite. As if i'm being guided in a direction beyond my inclination. It's a fun and exciting venture, however i'm still scared to death. I've never had such in-depth thoughts. Ones that require more than just my mind to unscramble. I'm finally starting to listen to my heart, but my mind continues to over-analyze every step I take. Have I indeed made the correct one? I don't want to bury myself so deep in thought and emotion that I'll be unable to completly recover. I know exactly what I want, always have, just never had the courage to fight for the important matters. Now that I have finally found this confinence, I can't help but wonder if I should hide it once again. Perhaps I've gone overboard, too far for my own good. I worry that i may have lost all that I have fought so long and hard to achieve. Lost sight of what I orginally set out to seek. Or is this what I secretly sought after all this time, and my mind was just blinding me. Afraid to allow my heart and soul to lead.

Together
When we talk we can figure out
how to reach both our destinations together
with as little sacrifice
and as mcuh fun as possible.
To reach a point at which we can sit in total silence
and still be comfortable
without the awkwardness.
Yeah sometimes silence can seem so loud.
There is nothing left to fear
because not everything is what it seems.
Side by side, to share our worlds.
And if either should falter
the other can always forgive.
To always feel just a little bit nervous
and just a little bit restless.
This is what defines our lives
because we are tempted by fate.
I admit I have rediculously high standards
however you are the exception to my every rule.
Realize there are facts in our lives we cannot change
just say you understand and feel the same.

In a dream
In a dream-
perfect love
has a smile,
a calming voice,
and a touch
that seems
to be meant-
only for you.

Learn from the mistakes of others, you won't live long enough to make them all yourself... Oh give me a break!!!. Learn from your own mistakes, so much more life full-filling. Besides some mistakes are too much fun to make only once.

To Be Heard
I put forth my expressions, thoughts, and ideas
in hopes that you will feel the words I have written.
One can never reach too far.
Perhaps I can awaken a sleeping world.
And not just become another passing face.
Who knows what tommorrow will bring
because this is a cynical world we live in
one few souls survive.
I don't wish to pass through this life unscathed
rather to fully live my existence with every passing day.
By far a perfect life I have not lived.
I dare you to show me someone who has.

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INSANITY
What surge forth the insanity?
Surrounded with overwhelming stupidity.
I swear i'm going to lose my sanility.
Does anyone possess a brain?
A mind to think for their own.
Constant parrells of laziness.
Mindless, heartless creatures
wondering in a lost world,
guided through cynical thoughts
and a select few macrolites.
Whom which are powerless,
except to that fact that everyone
seeks to reap their success.
A success often unfounded
exhaggerated through pure luck.
A mere luck that I nor those I connect with
will ever have the great fortune to achieve.

Music:
"I Can't Dance" -
Genesis

~for Thought~
We'll explore life with eyes wide open,
while colonizing our dreams,
and precipitating our own fantacies.
We are the creators of our selfless passions,
which are warped in our own minds.
~Sept 2004

TO DANCE
To dance is to hear the rhythm
of the never ending beat.
Dance the dance of you,
dance the dance of me.
For in the dance there is but one goal.
Reach deep down inside
and dance from your soul.
The truest form of grace.
From thy heart the movement flows.
Never mind the expression on anothers' face.
I am in wonder that scarce else knows.
Headphones on, I can hear the beat.
For I dance alone, for no one else to see.
Dancing down an abandoned street,
as yet I am to realize
others, as well, are moving their feet.
THE MUSIC STOPS!!
I awaken to the world,
only to see, I am not alone.
A crowd has seen me twirl.
My secret's out.
Can feel the heat.
Sly it off, Shake my booty.
Cause in my head I can still hear the beat.

...ACCEPT IT...
Just to accept the mere possibility
that I am nothing of what I used to be.
It's not me that is unsettled,
rather those who became accustomed
to the life and personality I left behind.
A life that was empty and meaningless
Full of direction,
however lacking complete focus.
Now I possess a passion and drive
to lead me through my chaotic life.
Lost in the confusion
of the battle with my mind and heart.
A constant endless fight:
to be guided with my heart,
amongst an analytical mind.
A fearless soul
clouded with the anxiety of failure.

This is where I am at in my life. Searching for more than everyday mundane existence or being a slave to the grind so to speak. I get my peek at such a life every once in awhile. Now to share my life and all its up and downs. To appreciate the magnificent and minuscule. Predisposed in the belief that life is much to short to spend it alone.

Life is not defined by the number of breaths you take.. Rather by the moments that take your breath away..

Good friends are the treasure of life.
Hard to come by!!!
A link to that will go the distance,
and weather the roughest storm.
Through good times and even bad.
In the midst of heartbreak,
when times prove themselves sad.
And with every toubling headache.
Behind the sincerest welcome
and the toughest goodbyes.
They always know whats wrong
and who's right for you.
They know you inside out,
as you do the same all along.
In life they are the true few.
The ones you really want to hold on to.