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August 20, 2002
It's a shame when no one can be determined who they are without their ensemble somehow being dragged into the characterization. It's really quite sickening that this is what we've become. I know I'm not a completely open minded person when it comes to clothes, but I know better than to evaluate someone by how they cover up themselves, especially if I have known them all my life.
I have put up with the clothing comments for the last time. If I want to be comfortable in larger t-shirts and pants, so be it. Why does this bother anyone? Considering the way I look to begin with, I think I'm doing everyone a favor by not trying to flaunt things I don't have. Most of you apparently haven't discovered this one little fact yet: you're not "all that".
There's self-confidence, and then there's just arrogance. If you're trying to improve how you look, and it's actually working, then congratulations. If it works, go ahead and do whatever. But if you're just making yourself weirder merely because other people can, don't be an idiot. Not everything works for everyone. And frankly, American Eagle printed across every inch of a skin-tight shirt and jeans that make me thing I'll never breathe again don't do much for me.
So I learned a few years ago. Ever since fifth grade I've been completely out of style, wearing old t-shirts from my mum and athletic running pants. The thing was, I was comfortable in that. I never had to worry about anything, until my pants started to pass my ankles, and then that was just annoying. My God! Life was so easy then! Sure, the occasional jerk would tease you about your shirt logo, but who cared? Like they looked any cooler in their "Beware: The Millenium is Coming!" shirts.
Then around the end of seventh grade for about a month I was like "Hey. I need new clothes, and my friends look pretty cool in them, I'm gonna get a few shirts from American Eagle." I was always against it until I realized I was really just a loser, and wanted to get out of it. And I'm sure it took some people by surprise. Then I heard Sum 41's "Fat Lip" and bowed my head in shame. How could I have done that to myself? I didn't want to be like everyone else, and I hated how those shirts always said something random like "American Eagle Volleyball Champion." I don't play volleyball, duh. Now that's what I consider a poser. There's a difference between saying "I think volleyball is a good sport" and "I play volleyball, and boy am I AWESOME!!" There just is.
I found a new outlet of clothing to wear after that. Hurley may sponsor skateboarding, but that doesn't mean I'm trying to say "Hey I skateboard I'm a punk". It's more like "I wish I could skateboard it's cool but I suck." Then I started getting some band shirts, because everything I do revolves around music and I want to remind myself about it all day. I bought them for myself. I love Box Car Racer, so I got one. I love Good Charlotte and NFG, so I got those too. I love the bands, not the other people who like them. This turns out to be a huge misconception. I don't want to make it seem like I'm trying to impress the other people. Most of you guys know me better than that. You know that I don't try to impress people with looks, because that would take waaay too much effort. You know I don't do anything to fit in, no matter what the crowd. You know me. If I don't want to be into something, I won't. It hurts that you think of me as another victim.
And why can't girls wear longer shorts? I don't like fabric up my ass! It's uncomfortable! Plus, not all of us have beautiful legs to show off. Like I said, I'm doing you a favor. I just want to be comfortable, and feel more modest. Same with my pants. I don't like it when it's skin tight. How am I supposed to sit down! I just want big comfy pants that make me feel like I'm in my pajamas all day. Is that too much to ask? I'm a sleepy person, I'd at least like to feel like I'm about to go to bed.
And guys - you piss me off too. How come you can wear Abercrombie all you want and like heavy metal music, but girls can't without being discriminated? I'm no women's rights activist, but I hate to see some of my friends who are completely into rock music spoken against as posers. Things like "She's wearing pink? She must like the lead singer then." You guys suck.
Well. I think that covers pretty much everything. In conclusion, if you like to show off your fat thighs and prefer to feel your lungs collapsing in because of your shirt, so be it. More power to you. Just don't get on my back because I can walk normal.
- Molly{10:48 pm}
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