March 29, 2002
Secrets

I always tell myself that things will balance out in the end. Rather miraculous how it comes out true, as nothing I say ever makes a difference.

I was looking for my brush this afternoon, and remember that my mom often takes it. I looked into her pocketbook, and found it strangely empty, all for but her wallet and a half pack of cigarettes.

My mom does not smoke. To my knowledge.

She's always going on about how disgusting the habit is, especially when she sees other nurses smoking. 'How can they keep other people healthy if they can't keep themselves?'

We're not one of those families where everyone has this one bad habit. I know plenty of people have drug families, alcoholic families, etc., but that's just something we've never been. Though my grandpa does smoke, and every one of her cousins does too. But it's not often that I see them puffing away.

I've never seen my mom do this either.

I'm hoping that they're not hers. The last thing I need is someone in my family getting addicted. Of course, I have no real proof that she's been smoking. I haven't smelled smoke at anytime, there's no real personality change, and obviously, I have yet to catch her in the act.

I suppose it shouldn't bother me as much as it is. I don't know that it's something she's been doing. I can only suspect. Most of you right now are saying, 'Calm down, they're just cigarettes.' And the other portion of readers are panicking, on the verge of telling your mothers. Please don't.

Eh... I really don't need this right now.

- Molly{5:24 pm}

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