| and sometimes i wonder if anyone would miss this sweet girl if she never came home if anyone would miss her fake smiles and rotten lies her wicked heart frozen to the world i can feel it the ruin seething through me turning my blood to wax and i sometimes wonder if anyone truly cares or if they're just interested in what they see in what they could claim as theirs a pretty decoration for their arm and i'll play the showgirl i'll play the queen for you i'll sip those bright coloured drinks when in reality i am so dead and empty and broken and cold and i sometimes wonder if this is real if anyone knows how alone and lost i am misguided by men i deserve this life of shit i inflict this sadistic condition upon myself with intention and i sometimes wonder if you could if i might save me from myself for this is such a risky dance with death |
| asphodeline lutea part II for the seemingly ever-lasting flower was overlooked in her darkest hour and too much like a fool I hath lingered for thee who sees only her and straight through me |
| no one knows what she goes through when she shuts that door on the adoring crowd when she wipes away makeup with tears and breathes in sharp breaths angered that each draws a new no, she does not regret she is only saddened of what she has become an object of desire of need of lust nothing more nothing more all alone that sad little angel sitting atop the pedestal all alone that sad ballerina dancing for whoever opens the top of the box no one sees her crumble when they close it |
| another glass broken and swallowed the pieces stuck in my throat piercing me with each movement and i can't remove them for the blood would gush choking me so i wait, and like the ocean with each breath the glass will wear down the edges will get smoother with time but they'll always be in there you'll always be in there you'll always be in me |
| a place where he reaches for my hand and i look into his eyes and see him for what he really is a liar a cheat a stealer of naive hearts the easiest and most cruel to corrupt |