As I Die
I sing my song of agony and torment,
of all the anger I have left to vent.
I wish I could find a way,
to not let my pain stay.
It�s a long road,
and I�m learning the code.
My pain is part of it,
as my demon throws a fit.
You see, I can�t stand her,
but I can�t make her stir.
She was my best friend,
when hatred is all I could send.
She calmed me down,
and she kissed me without a sound.
She knows of my pain,
as I stand in the rain.
My life is hard,
and she is my bodyguard.
You want me to run,
when I am having so much fun.
I know what I have to do,
and I ask if you would like to come too.
You say I know you better,
and, as always, I will write you a letter.
To communicate, I write,
even when it might cause fright.
I don�t know how far I will go,
but, of my fear, you know I will never show.
She was never gone,
and I always felt our bond.
I�m sorry for not sharing,
but I didn�t know if you were still caring.
I say, "I hope to see you soon,"
as I look up to the moon.
I look down at my blade,
and watch my vision fade.
I always said, "I�ll see you in Hell,"
but, of your soul, I know you will never sell.
My vision is getting black,
and all I can think about is going back.
And as I lie here and die,
I see Him walk away and cry.
