| May 22, 2002 2:35 AM Yes, I am procrastinating and not studying for my final that is in 5 and a half hours. This is just my break. =) So I was thinking about what it means to really trust God and it encompasses a lot. More than I think about on a regular basis. And to trust God is so much more than I make it out to be when I say that I trust God. I don't know if this makes sense. I am not too coherent right now. =) But anyways, trusting God includes believing that what He says is true. It includes being assured that He is in control even when things seem bleak. It means knowing that He hears all prayers and answers every one of them. And sometimes, trusting God means letting go. I think this is one of the hardest things to do, but also a huge part of trusting God. Because sometimes He says, "Let go" of something or someone and that requires trust. Trust that He knows better than I do. Trust that He loves me and wants what's best for me. Trust that even though letting go is the absolute last thing I want to do right now, I CAN let go because I know that He knows exactly where He's taking me. Trust that He knows where this road is headed even though I can't see around the bend. Trust that His timing is perfect and mine is not; His ideas are excellent and mine are not. Trust that He doesn't need me to try and orchestrate things on my own. So yeah, "let go and let God" as they say. Easier said than done. But I know that I can trust God because He has proven Himself completely, 100 percent trustworthy. Can't say that about anyone else but Him. So I guess letting go isn't such a scary thing when I think about who it is I'm letting go for. Loosen your grip, let God do His stuff. Cuz what He does is good. Praise God for that. =) **************************************************************************** Random aside: I'm not a good studier. I am only a good studier when I am in the library. When I am at home, my discipline is nil. How sad is that. I can only be disciplined at a library. I hope there will be a library everywhere I go. =) I am out of the running in the star chart race. It is impossible to catch up to Dennis. He is off the chart already by a lot. I think Han and Jess should put a cap on it and just declare him the winner. It's depressing to look at it! =) Rice a Roni is not so good at midnight. I mean, it tastes good but after eating it, my tummy doesn't feel so good. =P |