"Growing In Me"

What is this growing inside of me?
It feeds on something
And it gets bigger

Could I be pregnant? Cause it grows everyday!
No... It's no baby.. cause though it grow everday
There are no changes to my body

My mind on the other hand is abused by
This that grows inside of ME

What feeds it? What allows it to grow?
Is it society? My Parents? My childhood? My life?

I feel it killing me inside.. I feel the darkness
Hopelessness... loneliness of it... IT IS SCARED
Frustrted.. and just full of mixed emotions.

The coldness of it.. is UNBEARABLE...
The loneliness too much to comprehend...
The hopelessness is unmeasurable...

But the DARKNESS... is the worst of ALL
It is the not knowing what is GROWING.. and GROWING
INSIDE ME!

Some people tell me that I feed it...
And that I have total control of its existance

They even say it has a name....

ANGER

They call it ANGER

And could it be? Could it be that ANGER is inside of me?

And that I feed it... and that it is because of ME that IT exist?

- Sarahy �

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