| I'm Sorry |
| Sweetheart, I know I treat you like and asshole sometimes, but I don't mean to. I miss you and I've just been falling on hard times. I know that I've done all this to myself, but I blow up sometimes and it gets directed in the wrong ways. You know I am not capable of being angry at you. You know I love you more than anything in this world. I've successfully made Tinks and 'Bama mad at me. 'Bama thinks it's all her fault that I kicked them out last night. Tinks is about ready to kick me out. him and I got into a screaming match when I went to talk to Mr. B. I told him I could just move out and he said he didn't care, he could get another roommate. I am in so much debt, and I still don't have my damn job back. Mr. B told me to go to Waldenbooks and apply there. He asked me what my hobbies and intersts were and I told him about my poetry. I told him it was getting nowhere. He wants me to grovel at his feet, but I'm not going to. It's not because I have pride, you know I don't have any. I really, really need that job, but I'm NOT going to get it back. I can't stop thinking that my car is going to be repossessed. I'll probably get sued by every damn debt collector in the damn state. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for getting angry and snapping. I'm sorry for missing you and feeling incomplete without you. I love you so much and I cannot wait until I see you again. I have no idea what I am doing right now and I am completely stressed out. I never ever meant to make you upset at me by being an asshole. I'm sorry and I love you more than anything on God's green earth. Love, Amykins |